I'll still believe

Fri (17/9/2004)

Today , my thoughts were revolving around him and the song that kept playin in my head was Avril Lavingne 's Sk8ter Boi .....

He’s was a boy,
She’s was a a girl,
Cannot make it any more obvious,
He was a punk,
She did ballet,
What more can I say.

He wanted her,
She’d never tell secretly she wanted him as well,
But all of her friends,
Stuck up their nose,
They had a problem with his baggy clothes.

He was a skater boy,
She said see you later boy
He wasn’t good enough for her,
She had a pretty face
But her head was up in space
She needed to come back down to earth.

5 years from now,
She sits at home,
Feeding the baby she’s alone,
She turns on tv,
Guess who she sees,
Skater boy rockin up mtv!!,
She calls up her friends,
They already know,
And they’ve all got
Tickets to see his show,
She tags along,
Stands in the crowd,
Looks up at the man that she turned down.

He was a skater boy
She said see you later boy
He wasn’t good enough for her,
Now he’s a super star
Slamming on his guitar
Does your pretty face see what he’s worth?

He was a skater boy,
She said see you later boy,
He wasn’t good enough for her,
Now he’s a super star ,
Slamming on his guitar ,
Does your pretty face see what he’s worth?

Sorry girl but you missed out,
Well tough luck that boy’s mine now,
We are more than just good friends,
This is how the story ends,
Too bad that you couldn’t see,
See the man that boy could be,
There is more than meets the eye,
I see the soul that is inside.

He’s just a boy,
And I’m just a girl,
Can I make it any more obvious,
We are in love,
Haven’t you heard?
How we rock each others world!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m with the skater boy,
I said see you later boy,
I’ll be back stage after the show,
I’ll be at the studio,
Singing the song we wrote,
About a girl you used to know

I was really thinkin about him badly today .... maybe it is because i had being starvin myself from his thoughts lately ... but today i couldn't control my thoughts ... I am realli unsure ... I can't seem to break free yet I want too , coz it isn't allowing me to act as myself ... it is changin me to complete new person , whom i dun wanna be ... I just wanna be myself ... Hiaz , y did i have to get myself into such a mess ... I hate the thought of gettin involved with feelings and emotions ... It is gonna be long journey to walk out of the mess , i created ....

I am so kinda pissed with several group of people , these people seem to be puttin myself down ... these ppl keep forgettin words are killers ..... these group of people go about flauntin their anger and hold certain amount of unreasonable n unjustifiable grudges ...... n another group of people whom think they know everything and suggests , what you shld do , what hurts abt this particular group of people , It's HIM .... Why can't people seem to understand that no two people alike ... people have different perspective of things or people around them .... it is not so easy living in secular world .... there is too many conspiracy goin around... You have to be wise in enough understand those , to survive ..... SO , I AM 100% SURE FOR MYSELF ON KNOWING WHAT I WANT AND ITS MY LIFE ......

The general happenings of the day , school ended pretty late than usual Fridays , coz had some extra GP content lecture ... after skool , i met up with Manges , accompanied her to do her eyebrow threadin and hanged out with her ... Upon returnin home , logged online for awhile and couldn't stay awake , felt realli sleepy n had no control of myself.... Therefore ,took a early dive into bed.....=P

Thank you God for the love , you provided to my disturbed soul!

threw her kisses ;8:32 PM