I'll still believe

Today , I just not in the best form mentally .... I think most probably i am hit by moodswings .... I hate it manz.... coz wen I am hit by moodswings , my thoughts are not good and onli thing i wuld do is complain complain n complain .... which practically sucks... Gosh ... this mornin had terrible dream .... a guy friend of mine had to turn down my lover saying he isn't the right match for me .... and Mr. Kettle is the right match.... WHO IS MR KETTLE????..... Izzit the kettle , we use for boilin at hme? =P.... I realli can't seem to understand my dreamz.... tsk tsk...

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The Sisterz

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A Little Gathering ....

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(20/10/2004)Wed

Today , the day was just simply gloomy .... the atmosphere just wasn't rite , the whole promotional thingy is gettin too much n overwhelming .... the thought of retaining is juz too much ... I juz can't seem to get the idea of retaining sink into me ... I am praying realli hard tat i can juz somehow or somewat get promotoed into the next yr.....But , smthing deep in me , in saying tat " Come on , Nages ! Be responsible for your actions .... Be a Good Sport !" Yeah , I know i must be ... yet i juz can't allow another yr of mine to juz go past me ... it is just gonna be too painful ... I feeling realli troubled n i can't seem to wait for this whole promotional thingy to be over.... It is juz nerve-wrecking ...

Im juz caught in dilemma..... It seems that i always be not wise in my decisions.... tat now i juz caught in a dilemma..... I was simply lost in the crossroads...... I wish tat sum1 wuld stretch out their hands , holdin me secure in their hands n just walk me to my destination .... I gonna wait patiently watchin every moment , my plan unfolds into my life .... I will be simply thankful to God for havin such plans for me , and givin a purpose to me ..... coz GOD IS WISE .......

THANK YOU GOD FOR BEING THE WISE GOD N WHOM I CAN TURN BACK ON AND LIE ONTO DURING MY WEAKNESS .....=D

threw her kisses ;8:04 PM

(16/10/2004) Sat

Today , slacked ard @ home in the morning .... was supposed to accompany my mum to the temple , but somehow the whole thingy got cancelled coz my sis had to attend school in the morning .. As usual Sat, I was out for my 7-wk discovery session and for yf at early afternoon till night ....

During , 7 wk discovery , I made a conclusion for myself tat my being or my existence is planned , n it is NOT chance.... Makin the discovery , juz affirmed my presence n the purpose to my life ... I was glad tat i was able to draw the conclusion .... and makin the conclusion led to other discoveries as such of ownership .... The creator has the greatest ownership over us .... =D The whole discovery is juz so refreshing .... i am really pondering upon all the issues tat were raised n discussed coz its all abt discovering for ourselves and its abt our being......=D At yf , we discovered abt God's love and the magnification of his love and during serend , discovered on how we cld extent out our thanksgivin n our love to god ... thru the passage on Luke 7:36-47

36Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. 37When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, 38and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is--that she is a sinner."
40Jesus answered him, "Simon, I have something to tell you."
"Tell me, teacher," he said.
41"Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii,[4] and the other fifty. 42Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?"
43Simon replied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled."
"You have judged correctly," Jesus said.
44Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven--for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."

The passage was indeed inspiring to come selfless before God and to give thanks to the unfailing God with the willingness of the love in the heart of one ... =D

Thank you God for the love u showered in my life .....=D

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Hahahaha ..... Myself and Jia En ....

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The Intellectual QCP .........

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15/10/2004 (Fri)

Today , in the morning , I was just lazing ard my hse... Later , in the day , I had scheduled a outin with Cynthia .. So I met her up at Orchard ard 1 plus.... I had a great tyme with her walking along the stretches of orchard... window-shoppin for clothes and tokin so-called crap.... Hehehehe.... ThanK you dear , I enjoyed ur accompany ...=D Hope to have future outings with ya n the members of the "infamous" lor-soh grp =P

GOsh.... while i was out @ orchard with Cynthia , there was tis particular lady , who walked up to me n was like we r lookin for a new face , and we frm a talent model agency ... n cld ya spare few minutes for an interview at their office at takka... n i was like "is she outta of her mind???" comin up to me n saying tat i can give it a shot for a new face model thingy ! Grr... I think she has no beauty sense ... askin me somemore , wen i was actualli spottin rashes on my face ..... dots ..... Definitely , must be some scam company ..... Preyin their victims.... Hehehehe , luckily , i wasn't flattered by their comments ... n fall trap to their scam... =P An unusual experience ....

Yippy .... my dad had got a digital camera ... n its functions are damn so cool ... n he had entrusted it to me ... its realli damn cool sia ... I am brimmed with uncontainable excitement...Hehhehehehe ... I have alreadi decided upon someone to capture sia ... Lolz , i am gonna take candid shots... *evil nages gonna be at work * nanny nanny poo , noone can stop me now ... i can be juz memerized into the "beauty" ... hehhehehe .... Im juz so excited. Thank you daddy .... for the digital cam , even thou you din purchase it for me , but for general use.... its still okai wif me.... hehehhehe

Thank you god for the wonderous day !

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14/10/2004 (Thurs)

Today , I had practically slacked the entire day at home with nothing much to do ... rather than sittin infront of the com n chattin , and sleepin wen too much of chattin juz got too boring .... =P

Later , in the evening... left for my granny's place ... greeted by my little sweetheart .... I was just playin ard with her ... I simply luvin her... I was juz absorbed into her child's play .... I wanted to bring her back hme , but she was like no-no , she had pre-skool 2morrow .... so cute , the way she convinced me tat she wuld come in the nite , not wantin to disappoint me ... Cute manz , tis girl ... =D ..... She is one person whom i would look forward wenever we have a family gathering at my granny's place....=P

Thank you God for the day.... =D

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13/10/2004 (Wed)

Today , was the end of my promotional examinations.... But , I ain't in any mood to celebrate coz i feelin realli scared abt tis whole promotional exercise .... Hopefully , I am able to make it to the second yr .... I castin all my anxieties onto God...

I had my final paper , Mathematics 'C' paper.... I have no comments on it.... I hardly breezed through the paper ..... Through the paper , I was hopin wen cld the tyme for submission come , I was intimidated by the paper ..... =( Finally , the tyme came , I handed in my paper n headed straight back hme.....

Upon reachin hme , logged onto my com ..... spent few hrs online .... n then decided to hit down to lalala land....* Sleepy head*... feelin drained n exhausted... slept for few hrs ... waking up with a slight headache... logged again online..... spendin my rest of the day at my com after wks of not sittin on it..... it feels so great to be back on it.... Hehehhehe i'm juz addicted to it =P......

Thank you God for your unfailing love and salvation .......=D

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Tues (12/10/2004)

Today , was special in its little ways.... I had my Mother Tongue paper in the day ... The paper was kinda alrites ... Hopefully , i wuld push myself to a passing grade... =X The journey back hme frm skool , was juz so wonderful, had him to accompany me almost to my neighbourhood... I am enjoyin every single moment of his accompany .... I simply lovin 'it...=D

Gosh , I was confronted by my mum abt my hangouts on Sat.... Guess , she must have being goin through my stuffz.... n found things deep into christianity ... all the serend materials.... she was kinda advisin me not to get too involved into these... n know my boundary n to value my religion ... n I was like tryin to speak to my mum further abt it... but she seemed to careless , i suppose she doesn't wanna hear out frm me yet....During the day , i was also being able to somewhat to share some of my teachings with my dad with a neutral approach.... My dad is kinda having a diffcult tyme with his authorities...I was glad tat i wuld somehow make the approach ... =D

Thank you God for the day & comfort.....

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Mon (11/10/2004)

Today , was the start of my promotional examinations offically.... The start of the examination was indeed a killer manz .... Imagining sittin for two major papers just at the start of the exam.... The chemistry paper was a killer paper manz.... The geography paper was okai .... all my hopes are resting on my geography paper ... I had put in pretty alot of effort on it.... Yea , it was indeed a long day manz .... I was completely drained and exhausted tat i had to drown myself with energy drink , red bull .... Gosh ! I lost count of how many cans of red bull , i had.... =P

Thank you God for allowing me to trust onto you and not leaning back in my own understanding ...=D

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Sun (10/10/2004)

Today , I stayed back home, to do all my last-minute mugging .... I was really rushin for tyme ... I cldn't seem to settle down into my studyin also , maybe all the last-minute preparation is such freaking me out sia n the idea of sittin for two major papers 2morrow .... I can't seem to stop playin the scenerio in my head ... it was juz makin situtation bad .... I was tryin to calm myself down with a new song , i had learnt yesterdae frm the sharing .... i was singin it thru in my heart ...
the song titled " Faithful One" ... it did bring some calmness, and I trusted and casted all my anxieties onto the God .... By mid of the day , i was much settled down and did all the necessary wrappin up ... =D So, the entire day , i was just drowned into my books and my thoughts were just flooded with fresh knowledge tat i had learnt ....

At night , received a call frm Yanzi , she called to keep me in prayers durin my examination period ... Thank you , Yanzi =D

Thank you god for the comfort of calmness u gave me ....=P

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