I'll still believe

Gone are the days where I could go out with my friends and not buy anything in that outing. All I could be satisfied in the outing could be a simple decent meal with them. Now, somewhat every time I go out, I find it an excuse that I must buy something, if not why bother going out, when I could just save on the decent meal at home itself. Weird. It may seem. It seems I got all things wrong. I have found my joy in shopping and delighting in my purchases. And this is turning me into a shopping monster and I have no good watch over my money because I am swapping my card every time. I do not see it leaving me until I receive my bank statement. It freaks me out.

I am so going to curb this habit of mine. I will go out as much as I can, but no shopping. Just so, I can learn to resist the temptation.

Haha. A cold turkey treatment.

threw her kisses ;1:18 PM

Today , went out with mum and sister to check out the place he mentioned to me where they sell most of the blogshop clothes , the warehouse . But it was really a bad decision to go over there today as the place was crowded with ( fill in the blanks). So we had no choice , but to leave the place and go elsewhere.Then , we just ended up in Dhoby Ghaut.

We went on a shoes spree . Haha. Finally managed to get myself a open toe flats and the velvet material flats. I had been wanting to buy for sometime. But I still wanna look around for another pair of open toe , maybe with a little heel. And bought few tops. Mum is really mad at me for this because she seriously urges me to stop shopping and save money . I will try to keep my spending in control.

And tommorrow , I am going out with my polyfriend to Bugis. And , I so want to check the lavandercloset ranges. The ranges they have are all so pretty. Aww. Tell me now , how can I stop shopping?

I so need to practise self-control. Please pray for me.

threw her kisses ;10:36 PM

My outing with Bestie.

We went over to the Makan Sutra place next to esplanade for dinner . She had cravings for stingray and I felt like eating the "lalas". So as usual , we pigged out , and our stomachs were so full after eating that we were both complaining to each other that each of us were responsible for it. Haha. We always do that. And she is the real big bully , everytime complain to her boyfriend only that I am the naughty one. She is going to get it from me someday , and so need to tell her boyfriend that I am the innocent one and not to fall for her all so innocent talk. She is sucha baddie. Haha. We are still friends okay?

And , what a pleasant surprise awaited me , I bumped into DJ and gang. The main highlight is I bumped into DJ. Like oh my! Seriously speaking , I was hoping to see him. But I knew he was in camp . So it was kind of shocking to see him there at the moment. It's a pleasant surprise. :)
Just then , there was a car crash , accident on the road that we just crossed. Like so dramatic ,can.

Then , Shalini and I went over to Marina Square . As usual walked into Dorthoy Perkins , came out with bag of clothe. We are so predicatable because my sis beforehand bet with me over this. Lol.

I just love today .

When is our next outing? I had so little time with you . And you so refuse to travel one more stop with me. Boo!`

threw her kisses ;11:10 PM

hellooooo, i soo like invading your blooooog. is like so freaking funn, nages is sucha dog. harhar, nages loves me that she insisted on this pic being posted here, heeeehaaaahoooo. nages lovesss meee, that she wna get me a get me gifts for my birthday which is blah blah booo days away. how awesome.

anyway the wee wee is has currently whining over her hurt leg, she stumbled on her way home over mere steps, sucha retard righttt! we all know she`s sucha retarded freako, she wanna style style in the end fall down. harhar.hope for her speedy recovery cause she insist that her bone is "broken" and she cannot write her exam seated down because her leg hurts oh-so much. so she will be standing to do her exams hopeefully.

She`s singing her studying away, i wonder what gets to her pea brains. i like insulting her. Big smiles.

Dummy`s sister.

threw her kisses ;6:10 AM

I often find myself caught between two people because I am always the bridge between these people , as in I take the role of dipolmat because I am the neutral party to all situations , and I do not really hold any feelings and grudges against people for long and I do make efforts to reslove it . Just like a diplomat maintaining a peaceful environment. Hence , because of this nature in me , I am always caught between two people , and thus it makes me feel very bad because it sometimes backfires me and people may doubt my sincerity and trust in them. But do I have much a choice ? I am not sure myself , because I can't sacrifice one for another , and vice versa. But its different if my family comes into picture , I could do it for them because they hold a higher priority in my life. And you , guys come second to it. You can trust me to it. I value everyone of you closest to my heart.

I'm sorry if you feel that I have left you out . I never did it intentionally. I know you could understand me.

threw her kisses ;10:43 PM

I’m totally not in the idea of going back to school tomorrow. I just want to stay home and try to at least get some studying done and wait till its 5pm, and then go out and meet my girls for our special date.

But then it seems I have no much of choice, but to attend school tomorrow since I desperately need some tips for CMBIO. I suck at it big time! Though my grades seem decent but I need those tips to maintain its decency.

Anyway , Happy Valentines’ Day to all.

threw her kisses ;4:49 PM

Yesterday, at 8pm, I was sitting in front of the TV waiting for my programme to start , Just then, I heard loud clangs, it was the lion dance. One of my neighbors had called the lion dance to perform at their house. I feel lion dance completes my picture of Chinese new year celebration plus all the good food especially Bak Kwas , and Ang Baos. Its like Chinese New Year never comes to complete with the lion dance. I enjoyed the performance yesterday , I was close to home and watching it with my family. Wow! I even missed few minutes of my programme . This is something I will not compromise for something on TV because this are very real experiences I get to see , hear and feel.

With this , let me wish all my friends and family a prosperous RAT Year 2008 .

threw her kisses ;11:48 AM

I have been staying home straight for 4 days. :( I haven't been much productive . I am just lazing and using the net , and thinking lots about the what ifs. Its kind of dumb in how I have spent my days. But whatelse I can do when most my friends are celebrating CNY and just me nt celebrating it. Hiaz.

threw her kisses ;7:21 PM

I am so madly in love with the song playing in the background of my blog . I had it playing in my ipod repeatedly for a week. I like the part especially “ Oh .. you are just another part of me.” Maybe because that is the only part i can understand since its in English. Nevertheless , I attempted to search the web for the translation of the song in English, where most can understand.I realized something I have this unqiue way of listening to music , I tend to pay close attention to the beats of the music rather the lyrics and somewhat my intuition of the beats allows me to understand the lyrics mysteriously because the language is unknown. Isn’t that beautiful? Okies, enjoy the song. It’s beautiful. I love the atmosphere it brings me into. Smiles.

The English translation seems rather funny . But i suppose the song has much beautiful lyrics than this. Blame it on the language.

"You're just another part of me,ohYou're just another part of me,ohI fell asleep eating,I went crazy drivingI saw you while reading a book,beginning to wonder what's wrong with meI vomitted talking,I went insane writing songsI've gone blind loving you,heaven knows what's wrong with me againUnwilling to part,unwilling to give up,yet separatedUnwilling to give up,unwilling to part,broken upLove is yours,I am mine,it's finishedSo I was just suddenly fatigued,so I just didn't say soSo I had just gone numb holding up,so I didn't loveYou're just another part of me,ohI fell asleep eating,I went crazy drivingI saw you while reading a book,beginning to wonder what's wrong with meI vomitted talking,I went insane writing songsI've gone blind loving you,heaven knows what's wrong with me againUnwilling to part,unwilling to give up,yet separatedUnwilling to give up,unwilling to part,broken upSo I was just suddenly fatigued,so I just didn't say soSo I had just gone numb holding up,so I didn't love"

threw her kisses ;11:44 PM

helllo! its the oh-so-awesome nagiie sis here.

Nagie is clearing her wardrobe, as impossible as it sounds its like soooooo true. hah! I feel hungry on a random note. &&erm yea a little twist to the irony, nages is also using her com while clearing her wardrobe, & pestering me to update her oh-so boring and dead blog. && i like realised i like using the word irony when i blog in her blog. buahahas.

whatelse ahh? yea our dad is currently sleeping in a very nursery-rythme like pose currently, mum is currently cooking something i don`t think we`ll ever eat. i`ve currently been dreaming abt pizza. oh darn those drools.

Nagiee wans a new nick other then princess, finally she knocked some sense to herself that she ain`t no princess more like a wannabe. i sound so sadistic, how nice can i get babbyy! i think i`ve done enough bloging for now, i shall create havoc in her blog some other time then, olriteyys.

threw her kisses ;9:01 PM

I dunnoe why I keep doing this to myself. I know I like the person but somewhat I just can't allow myself to tell the person , always there has been a barrier , a fear. I am not afraid to be turned down but I am afraid of how things could change as in our friendship. And I guess I am not prepared for these changes , so I rather stick to what it is and just remain hoping the right time will come by. As days pass , this hope becomes little and it worries me. The thought of letting go always hurts. And I choose to think its better this way atleast and try my hardest to stay away. This really stinks. Hiaz.

threw her kisses ;10:55 AM

Yesterday , I had gone to little India with my poly mates , as I wanted to go and fix my eyebrows since I had destroyed my eyebrows a week ago by trying to tidy it up myself. I never ever going to try it again. It was such a disaster. I made my eyebrows botak, not really but some portions. Lol.

While there, I was approached by a lady to see astrology. And this was something we were discussing in school about a day ago and even at the moment that we wanted to see our astrology but we shouldn’t approach but they should approach us. And the astrologist just did that. So I had my palm reading done. It was quite amazing on what the astrologist predicted and said of my past and the present. I can say about 70% and more were so true.

Let me share a brief of what she shared with me. She said my palm reading belongs of a guy, though I am female in earth. But my palm reading is of a guy, and thus I will possess traits of guy and female. And she said in regards to my education that I must have changed institutions and had a break in education for a year, and I would be studying till I’m 26 and so of now education path is smooth. And then, she went on to address my family, she said that I should only be having one parent or other must be suffering from illness. This was kind of sad. And then, said of my dad that he is having a difficult time at work as all his favors to others backfire him, which is so true. And then she went on to tell about my love life , she said that I must had a love failure 6 months ago .And the rest were very much of my predictment of my future. One of the funniest thing, she said I will be marrying in the age of 23. That is like next year. Oh my! Lol. This I will not believe because I will never marry or nt that early.

threw her kisses ;10:15 AM

Today was kind of weird in the morning. Just yesterday, I was trashing all my feelings and thoughts to my sister about some people in school that I am struggling to put up with their constant nonsense and tolerate it in the sake of friendship. And that let me to even think deeper if our friendship was even greater than the superficial friendship we make just to fill our time and to just have friends to hang out in school. I came to realize they just fit the bill for that category. I can never imagine them walking the extra mile with me, because they do not even help or accompany me with the smallest need of mine. It is kind of upsetting but I guess I should not be expecting much as I have always being independent and this shouldn’t question my independence. But at the same time, I should also draw a line for this “friendship” before it becomes a manipulative scheme of theirs. It is like I shouldn’t be the all so nice person giving in to their whims and fantasy; I shouldn’t be much bothered if my actions seem unreasonable or hurting for the right reasons. And I shouldn’t be the one always initiating peace in misunderstandings because they are ought to realize their part in the misunderstandings too. I think I have been too nice and kind already that I have no choice to stand firm to make sure I am not the fool in this whole “friendship” saga.

I still had my dose of happiness besides all these drama. I was with my SNAP!` shopping :)

threw her kisses ;11:59 PM