I'll still believe

Boohoo.. Uk shyam finished 7th in today’s race. Little sad about it! I was expecting a better performance. Anyway, it was well done. Hopefully, he won’t retire at this year but got many more years ahead. I want more of him on track. I do not know if I should be going down on Dec 5th to airport. I want to catch a glimpse of him. Still thinking??? Anyone interested in accompanying me?? Reply ASAP, tks!

Okies, Today had gone school tracking with my mum and sister, went to Sengkang to locate CHIJ ST JOSEPH COVENANT. Its not too far out compared to my former school. Hopefully, my sis will be able to get a place into the school. Pray hard. Okies, after which left for Compass Point… Walked the mall, nth much in the mall. Quite dull not much of shops to hang ard. But there is fast food! Yay! My sis can buy home if she will to get there. One-stop fast food centre…. Gosh!!! Wad I am asking for????? Okies, enfuff of my crap…

Oh yeah, I have bought the album for my neoprints. I am going to spend some time doing the album up … Hooray!!!!!

threw her kisses ;11:07 PM

Yay! I am glad for Uk shyam and my heartiest congrats goes out to him over his qualification to the Finals, 100m. I am really glad he is back on track. But I m little disappointed with the Team Singapore website as I was looking around the athletes profile, I notice several accomplishment of Uk Shyam went unrecorded. How can his achievement of sliver medal and record- breaking be not reflected in his accomplishments? I wish him all the best in his performance later on track. I am so happy that I am hearing his name back in the news and for his performance in the Manila, Sea Games. Well done! I can’t stop being happy for him. Okies, back to my ego-centric world …

Long John Sliver, Chicken Wrapped Meal with Milo Freeze, and desert, chocolate cream pie and movie ticket to Harry Porter and The Goblet of Fire. Shortly, followed by Sizzling Taiwan Delight, Black Pepper Chicken, Black Pepper Egg Tofu and Mushroom and Black Pepper prawns accompanied by dessert, Yami, natural yogurt topped with Oreo cereals. Burrrrrrrrrppppp!!!!! Sponsor, my aunt! Thank you, aunt! Special thanks: my sister, it was meant to be her treat but she shared her treat with me. Soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeet of ya! Incident of the day:

Just as my sister and I arrived at Orchard Mrt Stn and met my aunt. A lady tapped onto my sister and handed her a piece of paper and she claimed to be deaf and dumb, and needed money to travel back to KL as a job agency had cheated on them. My aunt had seeked the help of the control staff. But language was such a barrier even the piece of paper wasn’t enough to communicate. We did not know if the lady was genuine in seeking help or she had planned to con us of our money. Anyway, we had left the matter to the control staff and left for our movie date.

PS: First time, my sis and I traveled alone to Orchard together! : P

threw her kisses ;10:50 PM

Okies… I have gotten my much awaited handphone. Nokia 6101. Its soo cool and trendy. I’m lurving it. Woots… But little sad that my nokia 3200, had to go. I had bought my previous handphone with my pay from working at Kumon. It holds some sentiments and it had some wonderful memories. I so lurved it. Its time for it to go though. But I will miss it. Byeee, Nokia 3200. Welcome to the family, Nokia 6101!

In Loving Memory of
Nokia 3200

Greatly missed by Princess , Nages!

Byeee , Nokia 3200

threw her kisses ;9:06 PM

Okies, I have been rotting at home yesterday. I was feeling worst yesterday. The temperature was fluctuating again. Brr … It’s cold. My nose has been feeling really
uneasy over the sudden rise and drop of temperature. Sinus! Okies. I rotted infront of the “ square” and bummed in my bed with a huge blanket over me. I am feeling so lousy and lazy. I spent some time to do up the footprints for the advert agency. Cut cut cut. Snip snip … Woots! Oh no! My wrist hurts! Ouch! Dunnoe why also! Twist Twist … maybe its just stiff or must have been sleeping on it for too long.

Okies. I’m guilty about today. I shall keep ssshhhhh about it! I have no mood. I just want to get my thing. It’s my motive for today. I want to own it. It will be mine, hopefully. Oh dear, can the rain please stop … Little NaGeS, needs to go out to get her things. Oh please … Stop now!

threw her kisses ;1:12 PM

Today is results day for my sister. I had accompanied her along with my mum to collect reults. Her principal speech was such a bore. I was entertaining and irritating my mum. My mum was freaking out sia. I was there to liven up the tensed atmosphere. My sister did fairly well. Though I am disappointed over her grading in her Tamil and losing out to her friend. But she did an impressive job! Well done! After results, we feasted out in Macs. We'r lovin it! Returned home ! Changed and left for Kovan , and danced around the machines and posed! Winks! Yay! Took neoprints together. Hahahaha .. My dad missed out on the fun , he was at work... Poor thing! Oh yeah ! I can't wait to get my new handphone... I so want the NOkia 6101 .. Its isn't so trendy or wadsoever . But I like it! I want it. Stoopid singtel operator , say its no longer in sale. But i saw in the shop sales window . I want it ! I want it! Pleady please... Achoooooo! catching the flu bug .... * coughs* falling sick ... Please make me healthy with a pink boost .... ciao

threw her kisses ;10:44 PM

I guess maybe my decision today was wrong. I should have just stayed home like I planned to do. I am just too easily persuaded especially when he had to ask him out for today’s trekking. I wanted to stay behind at home and spend some tyme with my sister. It was all planned out. Stoopid me! I dunnoe why I wanted to go. I should have stayed behind. Okies, what’s the point right! It’s already done!

Okies, coming back to the trek. I was so early. Like around 12.30pm plus already, I was there at Serangoon Bus Interchange. No one was around. Slowly, people started coming in. Followed after me, was Mei Yee. She had just ended her O levels and she was deciding whether she should be even be applying for PAE or look into other things. So I was just asking her what would be her choice. She feels so unsure bt she mentioned she knows that poly-learning style suits her better and she is much cut off as a project-based person. But I thought Mei Yee should actually give a try to the first three months JC, at least later when the actual JAE, she will be very much be sure on what she wants to be pursuing in her academics and not be caught in the same dilemma laterz. I would encourage her to go for the three months JC; she can go in to have a feel of a JC environment, even if she does like it there after a week or so. She can even withdraw. I think God is so good to her; he opened a door for her to go and experience JC life. Many also yearn for the opportunity but they do not get it. So I would encourage Mei Yee to go for it and trust onto God in his providence over her education path.

Okies, coming back to the trek, after her, he walked in. He was like “ How are you feeling today?” I replied, “ I was still not feeling too well”. Then he asked, “if I was dying?” He really too much. I was already not feeling well; I came because he wanted me to me there despite myself not feeling well. I make the effort and all and yet he gives those comments. I hate you! Okies, got into our grouping, I was in group 1 at first and then I had to switch to Group 3. Sian. So we hop onto the bus.. traveled to some unknown place and finally we alighted in our respective bus-stops, near Seletar Camp. We took our maps and started making our way to our first checkpoint… It was a real real long way. We had headed the wrong way towards the dead end. So we had to walk back to the bus-stop, where we alighted and walked downwards and then turn in towards the Seletar reservoir. As we were there, I was tempted to pluck all the wild flowers. So I happily went and plucked the wildflowers. I collected quite a handful. They looked so beautiful. Awhile, laterz, Edward had to tell me the plucking of wildflowers is not allowed according to the trekking rule. Goodness! I violated the rules. So I had to stop plucking and hid the flowers away if not laterz when we return to our final spot, we might need to take punishment. But it was pity to throw the wildflowers away. I had planted them into the ground near a lamppost. They look so beautiful beside the lamppost. It was my mark, “ I was there.” Okies… and then we continued on our walk to first checkpoint. Upon reaching our checkpoint, we had to tie one of one legs and walk in our groups along a rocky side for quite a distance. Our group failed, we had broken the string. So we just walked through the path and headed towards our next destination, the Kranji Park connector, upon reaching there, we had caught with the first group. Upon reaching there, there was another challenge, we had to dump our bags to one of our teammate to carry and I had my hands tied back and we couldn’t talk for around 20mins. It was so weird the silence. Awkward silence but smiles were there to liven up the atmosphere. So continued on the walking. I was all tired already by now. I felt that walking was way too slow. I wanted to run to the final stop and go “ I have finally reached!” Sad thing! I do not know where and plus my teammates were tired. So had to maintain pace with them. There were some nice scenery around. Then along the walk, Kun Ho shared his pics he took in his recent trip to Shanghai. The view of the skyline was splendid. I am going to get the pics from him soon. So we walked and walked. Finally, we reached the Sew bang Park, and we settled along the jetty, greeted by the other teams. Then, we sat there. I was so carried away by the waters and the ships that were in the sea. It was so nice, the night skyline and the waters. Such a pity! I did not carry my dig cam along with me. From there, the day activities ended. We left for Sew bang Mall, Sun plaza to grab our dinner. Amazing thing! I did not even grab anything since morning and I survived the walk. I drank Milo in the morning, but I had puked it out before leaving home for the trek. So I was enduring the walk in an empty stomach. But I din feel any hunger or thirst. Even, later as others went to grab their dinner, I did not get anything except for a drink. It was so refreshing the drink. But I wasn’t hungry. Then laterz , the song company had decided to ring up my adopted sibling to sing to her and encourage her for her examinations. They sang but I had dialed the wrong person so they sang to the wrong person. Paiseh! They sang a really long. I felt bad and then laterz, we called the right person and sang. Paiseh manz! Then something happened in the walk also, Edward had played a stoopid prank on me. So stoopid, I believed him and bought his crap, his squash racket comes with a MP3 player. Dots…. They kept bullying me sia.. Sob sob…

Finally, it was time to go back home. Then all the east people were gathering. Then he was taking a cab. And, most of the east people were heading elsewhere. It seemed it was only me returning back. Okies, I fine with it but I was quite pissed off when the rest was keep on telling him, “She is also traveling east!” Okies I know, I am not staying at Tampines but you din have to give a crude reply … Wad abt her??? Wad abt her??? It is disturbing! I did not ask for a lift or anything. It was them. So excuse me!

Okies, I am tired now. Going to knock off. My leg aches. Need to soak my legs…. Ciao.

threw her kisses ;11:50 PM

Goodness! It has been raining for almost three days. The temperature is fluctuating really low. It is so cold down here. I can’t imagine having to live in winter when I can’t even stand the chill of the rain. I am all in blanket almost the whole day. Today, I slept way past 2pm. Even my dad, had woken up after his morning sleep after his night shift. I woke up with a bad throat and feeling feverish. Thankfully, its better now! As, I was in bed; I was having some judging thoughts over some people on whether their concern towards me was genuine. I guess it is not, because none even bothered to find out from me since the day, I left.

Oh yeah! Tomolo is the “trekking” @ Serangoon. I do not know if I shld be going for it. I do not feel too good and plus it has been raining. And, I guess I will need to spend some time at home with my sister, as day after tomorrow is her results. She will expect me to be home to lent her a listening ear over her anxious thoughts and fears. I am still deciding. Decide tomorrow morning , I guess!

threw her kisses ;10:42 PM

Booo! I am rotting at home. You guys must be wondering how come I am rotting at home , when I was so bragging abt the job thingy . The company had not called me back so there goes the job. I am okay with it because I am feeling rather lazy to work also. The money motivates though but what to do, if they dun want me working for them. I will need to look for other jobs in papers and I tried calling Kumon today asking if I would come and help with marking but the chief instructor wasn’t around so I will have to wait. I will have to call back tomorrow to check with her. Hopefully, I can mark worksheets while I look for other temp job. It’s so boring to be staring at the “ squares” just as he puts it. Let me a share what I did today. I was so bored that I became a hairdresser for an hour. Oh please! I din crop my hair any shorter. But poor Barbie doll had her hair trimmed, quite an impressive job, I though! Till, my mum had to play with the Barbie, now the Barbie spots such a short short hair. It is so yucks! And even bath the Barbie doll and powdered it! My sis was shocked and was like disgusted at me. You playing Barbie dolls with raised eyebrows, she asked. I was like “ what’s your problem?’’ Hahaha. It was fun. Oh yeah! I finally changed my blogskin and given my blog a facelift.

threw her kisses ;8:03 PM

It was the interview. It wasn’t bad. I liked the job and all. But the question is now my three consecutive Saturdays are burnt if I were to get the job. I am so in need of the money. The offer is so good. Furthermore, the job is helping me to gain some working experience with kids. As the job scope is to be a facilitator in the Kids camp. In addition, the kids’ camp seems so groovy and interesting. All the fun element is blended in the camp scope. I can visualize the whole scenario in my head. Running around with kids and engaging in kids’ play along with the Kids. It is so awesome. I so want the job. It is all I want and ask for. Fun and getting paid quite handsomely. All I can ask of now, is whether I would receive a call from the company tomorrow. Pray along with me people. I so want the job! Its fun! I love kids! Wow! Surrounded by kids for 3 whole weeks. Its indeed awesome. Hahaha. God u knew I prayed about it last night to you in providing the time and day in regards to job. If the job you want be to be in, I will. Firstly, it was you who made it possible for the people to contact me for interview and also now it is you, who holds unto the plans. God, u know the heart of mine. I love it. Can I have it , pleads please .. Thank you, God!

threw her kisses ;10:27 PM

I think many do know; I was looking for temp job to take up during holidays. So yesterday, I tried my luck in calling up a place that was offering a 3-wk assignment job. I was least expecting to receive a call back. But surprisingly, they did call me back today and hooked me up for an interview tomorrow. I am excited and fearful at the same time. I am excited that I will be able to earn some cash, which I can use to pamper myself, and need not ask for allowance from my dad. At the same time, I am worried that my holidays will be burnt. I am going to commit this job into the hands of my Heavenly Father and trust Him in the providence of time and day. I love the working environment though; I will be working with kids if I get to work. Yay! But, on the other hand, I checked out the management of the workplace, it seemed to be run by people of my own. So I kind of hesitant towards working with my own. I simply have a lousy thought of my own. Its not that I think I am superior or what. But I just feel uneasy and uncomfortable. But I guess, God have planned it such, and putting me into His test. Just few days ago, I learnt God is love. He loved us. And His commandment was to love others as He first loved us. People do pray for me in regards to my attitude and my fears towards this job offer. I think it will be good if I could get this job. But I will leave these plans to my creator who knows what is best for me. Thank you, God!

threw her kisses ;7:09 PM

Im tired for now . Today , I had indulged myself into reading . Im so enjoying the book ' Rachel Tears' . I like the relationship Rachel Joy Scott enjoys with her creator. I too wish I will be able to maintain such un understanding that I will be much be able wrestle my thoughts with my creator rather than seeking approval of men. Her life is so inspiring . I will write more on many thoughts in my next post. As I had said , I'm tired from today's visitation to my aunts' place.

threw her kisses ;11:49 PM

It is just amazing in the way my prayers are answered. I was quite worried for today that I will not be able to be excused from home. So I made a prayer to God last night for the permission to allow me to go for today’s activities and followed by fdn and yf. Guess what! All I had to say, I was going out and meeting some church friends, and I was allowed and I told I will return late. No further questioning. I left home and engaged in the activities of the day. So cool ah? God is indeed in sovereign control.

The first activity for the day was “ Bingo!” And then followed by the sharing of God’ love and to be reminded on God is love, and hence we were looking into how we can live out the life on knowing God is love and he first loved us. So as an eyf, we were committed to love our fellow siblings. So, we adopted a sibling to care and shower love in our commitment to God. It may seem easy, but it does take a lot of patience and love to love another. But we are ought to remember, God is love and he loves us. So love is a test of our faith and patience. There was one example shared. Imagine yourself walking into a construction site; do u think the place is lovely? Obviously not, it is noisy and messy! But to the developers, it’s a piece of beauty! Because they have the vision in mind. Likewise, when we think loving is difficult, we are ought to have in mind why we want to love another sibling, It will be to edify and encourage the sibling. So with this in mind, we are able to love. After session on God’s Love, we had a short company time to split our jobs in our respective company. I’m in the post company. I got to receive and deliver letters! Cool! I love receiving letters. (*Hints) Lunch break. Played some kiddo games … Snake and Ladder.. Mouse in the House … n pictionary. Moved on to Fdn.. In fdn, we wrapped up on repentance and shared with the class in one area of repentence, we have worked on / working on in the past week. I shared on my struggles of accountability and my honesty in my r/s with God. And after which, we took some time, to look back in our christocentri camp materials. Guess! I have forgotten much. Need to take some time to look back and reinforce on all the truth that was spoken.

In yf today, it was themed celebration. God is celebration. We celebrated over the many reasons we had to celebrate . Joy! After yf, it was quiz time with the brothers. We did not too bad. But I ought to take time to memorize and visualize the verses before next week. And after which, I sat down for a short chat with Bao ling. I was sharing with her my decision of switching. But she was quick to ask me if that was my escape route? Maybe this is something I will have to answer for myself and be honest with myself. Even though, now I might not say it is, but I got to search my heart and think through it. It is a big decision bt I guess I am taking it to lightly. I will have to pray in regards about it. Teach me and Search me o’ lord ..

threw her kisses ;10:10 PM

Today was the class outing of 04S6 for the year-end. The teachers were treating our class supposedly at BREEKS! Marina. How well! The place is closed down. So we were gathered at City Hall .We were all-punctual but the main people were missing, the teachers! The one who was treating us! Sian! Waited nearly to an hour. Piang! Then, we decided to head down to Habourfront to try our luck there at the BREEKS! On our way to Habourfront station, something really stoopid happen. For those who knows , from dhoby ghaut mrt stn , there is a travellator ( ain’t sure of spelling) leading to the Nort- east line… So I was trying to play with Sheryl as she was in the travellator whilst I was beside walking .. Hahaha Competing with her. Very Bo liao . I know. Wad to do??? I enjoy cheap thrills. Okies. After which, we were so ahead. Then, Mr. Lim was just behind. So I like paiseh! Then I said I’m paiseh so loud n then Patrick had to add to it. And then Sheryl had to mention I was shy. Mr. Lim was like blushing already. Goodness! His actions are so predictable. Then , once we reach down the train doors were open . So I got into it and followed by Mr Lim. And then partick was about to get in , the doors closed and then Sheryl had to pull Patrick. So scary manz. But the thing was I was with Mr Lim in train . While the whole class had to wait for the next train. Paiseh manz. The whole class had a smirk look on their faces. Paiseh sia! So all the way from dhoby ghaut to Habourfront , I was standing beside Mr Lim . He kept asking so what was my decision and all. So I was answering him and all. He seemed little concern over my parents response to my decision and all. Then I was telling my parents are pretty supportive and all . Then he was its good and he was telling me to make use of that opportunity and all. For once, he did not sound so book a person. But then I wasn’t able to look into him and talk. I kept on fidgeting and all. The attention was scary. Then I saw some people eyes were looking towards our side. For goodness! So kappo! But then there is nothing. He is my teacher and I’m his student. Definition made clear. Stoopid Sheryl had to mention “ how was your togetherness?” Paiseh man. We headed to Breeks café! Habourfront. The food was okay la. But I think the portion was rather huge. I was not able to finish my meal . I had ordered the set course , Baked Rice with ****** . It came with a soup and a dessert and drinks additional dollar only. I did not want to bomb a hole into the teachers’ pocket. But anyway , it wasn’t cheap also. And laterz , we walked ard Habourfront mall , all the shops were closing and we will there posing especially me infront of the kiddo machines. It was fun!

threw her kisses ;1:00 AM

I seriously feel that God is really good towards me. God really do speak to me over his words. Not only he speaks to me at one time, He reassures me, knowing that I need to be very much nagged at. But God do not nag at me, but he provides the people for his message to be delivered to me. I am very much amazed in his pursue of drawing me closer to Him. It simply amazes me how much God wants me to grow in my relationship with Him. God is indeed in sovereign control. I can hear God speaking “ Its okay, my child! Pick up and walk. I am patiently waiting. Just keep trying and I am watching over you. You need not fear because I of higher hands am leading you. Walk the walk with faith, my child!’’ I know it is going to be difficult but I can know learn to trust God, as I am very reassured in the ways God have been pursuing me. God is so awesome! I feel I should also be pursuing God even as very much He has being pursuing me. Maybe those who are reading this entry can pray in regards that I will be diligent in pursuing God and directing my life towards Him.

Let me sidetrack little. Today, was the first session of EYF, I attended. I miss the earlier two sessions because of festive. It was quite fun today. Boo! The first part of today’s session was prayer. We were supposed to get into groups of 4 to pray for each other in our struggles. So we prayed for our siblings in their struggles and for their needs. Haha. Once again I am with him. Then moved on to pray for our siblings who are having examinations in the period of Nov. And, then we did some “ mirror-image game”, and Shi Hua shared with us in the purpose of the game. And, we sang worship songs. I love the song “ In the image of God”. It speaks so profoundly. Then after which, we looked into adverts of mass media. There were really a lot of adverts I have been missing. Some of the adverts were really cool and classic. My group had looked into the advert of videogame and the message tagged with advert was “ Life is a game!” I guess many have treated their lives as a game especially in the way the handle their lives. They see no tomorrow and they live as it for now. They are filled with much uncertainty as they lead their lives. There is seriously much more than our life to be a game! Think through it! It was meant to be game than why do we not sit back and let it pass by us, because we can pick and learn along the way. We can scream lets be easy about our lives but that’s not the case, we are of much greater purpose. We will have to discover and we will have to ask. What if I say your life isn’t yours to control, will you then be conscious to lead your life proper or be bochap about it. It is the test of your principals. The Light speaks of it in Gen 2:7 and 2 Cor 5: 15. Oh yeah, back to my day, then after which we had to re-enact the advert in our version. Hahaha. I was the tour guide. I blah blah … “ This is the statue of liberty. Please make yourself free and easy to move around to take pics…!” So lame…. And we learned through the adverts that adverts are so misleading and they very much test our principals and we will have lead a pure life against the impurity and the way to do so was through abiding in God’s word. That was the end of EYF. After which was supposedly games, but it was raining so heavily. So we had to settle down in Guilin for chariots. We spilt up in our companies. I’m in Post Company. Hahaha. So we took our turns to go up and perform for our groups. Soo stoopid, the first thing I had to act out was titanic. I was like “ oh my gosh!” Embarrassing. I stretched out my hands into the air. Then they go “ Titanic! Titanic!” But too bad, my group was little slow to get into their feets. Then , I had to go up the nxt tyme , this time act out visa card .. This was tough … I did not know how to put the picture across. I tried though! Failed attempt. My group won the chariots. So sian! The winning team got to forfeit sia, had to perform a Bollywood dance sequence. Stoopid! The chasing and the trees. I got paired up with him and so lame I had to run after him. Bully sia… After, which left for Bugis with Patrick. Finally, bought my skirt and ¾ pants, which means, I spent and I’m broke now. Okies, I’m deadbeat now. Going to call it a day soon. Oh yes! My dad is away from S’pore. Hopefully, he gets something back for me. Oh yeah! The class outing at Breeks is hours away from now. I can’t wait to meet the piggies. Miss ya guys! Miss me hor!

threw her kisses ;12:35 AM

Sniff... Sniff... I love the smell on me... I know i sound bo liao but the smell is so nice... Im sniffin myself over n over again .. I love the smell... Lala-tee ... Sniff ... Gosh! I better be doing up my I&R now and practise my speech .. Tomolo is the end of the PW! Yay! Finally, I am free frm the torturous holds of PW!!!! Oh yeah!!!! I need to save and watch my spending .. Stop me from spluring esp now when I have many things I want too buy .. Please stop me ! I want to wait for Christmas ... That's when all the sales will be up.. Great discounts and slashes of prices!!! Oh yes! I need to stop feasting also .. Need to carry out my villa wellness training... Need to shed some weight ... Need to plan my time-table out ... If not I will lose track of my days , if i allow myself to flow with the days .. Guess... I will go now... Be Back 2morrow...

threw her kisses ;7:41 PM

Its getting cold in here. I hoping to blog something into my blog but somehow nothing seems to be blogged . Everytime , I log in hoping to blog something down , I do write a few sentences and i later which move my mouse and select all and I delete the entry. I am feeling so insecure to even to pour my thoughts into this blog space.I have changed url . Noone knows my blog , I suppose. Only for my friend , Shalini and my sister. I do not trust anyone else to peek into my blog space. Many will not understand . Many will misjudge. I will try to be back tonight to blog something.

threw her kisses ;4:49 PM