I'll still believe

I am building a sandcastle of hopes . Just topping it up with more sand and smoothening it up . I am so afraid the waves will come and hit my sandcastle down. Just so scared. This is so random. I dunnoe what I am thinking now. I feeling out . And I just want to have fun and want to fall in love again. (:

threw her kisses ;11:12 PM

Attachment has been great lately!` But tiring. Everyday come home and nap . And then update blog about the clinical attachment. For details of clinical attachment , visit www.missyintraining.blogspot.com. Nothing much has been happening . Just attachment and home!` And I am sick!` Down with running nose and bad throat. Damn me! Falling sick so often ! Need to really take care of myself ! :) The weather isn't helping much.

Today , cancelled my date with Sammie to go queue for donuts ! Sorry!`
I am still craving for the donuts , though! Just that I am not feeling well and thus I am worried that I will not enjoy it as much , so did not wanna waste queuing for it , as I will not be able to enjoy it as much as I want. Lol. We will go once we are free again okies!` Donuts, wait for us , we will come ! And I wanna go shopping also !` Just hope can find the time and the buckeroos! :)

threw her kisses ;6:48 PM

I am now watching Initial D on Tv . The movie brings back pleasant memories. The outing with the gang. I miss all of you :) Its been really long since we gathered as a gang. Lately , it is always missing a few. Yeah. I so want to go back time. The happier times!`Yeah.

Today , practically did nothing much. Feeling rather sick. My throat sucks. And tml is clinical attachment. Just hope , I will be fine! In the afternoon, went over to grandma's place. She just came back from India , mum and dad went to fetch her in the morning. Me and sis , sleeping beauties so we can't wake up to go fetch her from airport . Then, we joined them later at her place , and then dad brought us to lunch near her place. Grandma bought me and sis few accessories. They are prettyae!`Thanks.

Then , came home and printed my clinical attachment schedule , and now going to go back to my show! Goodnight.

I somewhat feeling rather quiet today. I miss him.

threw her kisses ;10:31 PM

Okies , I going to backtrack alittle to Thursday for my darling , Shalini.I so wanted to blog about it but blogger was being a bitch.

On Thursday , I met Shalini for our "Hot Date " at Sakae Sushi , Tiong Bharu Plaza. It seems like lately whenever we meet , we always go Sakae Sushi and the same outlet. But its fun!` Just the company of hers is great. I had a great time , just the girls' thing , eating and talking over food. Boo!` She lied to me saying that Tiong Bharu Outlet got 'Mrs Field' outlet . Sadly , there wasn't only Famous Amos outlet. I soo wanna eat the 'triple chocolate fudge brownie' from Mrs Field. Its so chocolatey and yummy . I want .

Darling , thanks for the pretty bangles ! They are pretty !` I regret not going with you on the trip. It seems so much fun. All the youngesters and the nightlife. What a waste !` Hopefully , i can go for the next trip !`

Talking about trips , I want to travel , just travel and shop. Oh Babey!

OH DEAR!

WE NEVER CAM-WHORED THIS TIME!

OH MY !?!?!

threw her kisses ;12:35 PM

Seeing him now doesn’t seem to bring the same joy I had previously. I am always hoping things will just change. Strangely enough , he spoke! The words “ Hello , Nages!” . I miss hearing you tease me with it. I miss everything about you. Why we had to let go? Just why? It hurts me whenever we cross path each other because it has changed , I can only remain hoping.

But then , its pretty stupid. I love you still.

threw her kisses ;11:06 PM

The T09 gathering. The inital plan yesterday , all the oreos meet up earlier and go cycle and join the rest of T09 for bbq. But sadly , not all the oreos will there . Neverthless, we still did cycle , played with the waves and camwhored in the breakwaters. We had our fun . Then we joined with others from T09 , the few , the organisers rather. They were there to set up the pit and get in going for the bbq. We still continued playing and then returned bikes . Frisbee !` . We started throwing frisbee in the air. But not that fun as the many times I played in the classroom of 05s6. Then suddenly , everybody became tired and sat down . And the food was already being served . So that was the end of games for me atleast because I did not stay behind for games . I had to leave early as the next day , meaning today I had things on in the morning . Really morning !

Its 6.22 am now. I am all dressed up, actually can't be bothered to dress much and so waiting for my parents, need to go over to the Old HDB place , to go for the signing of the deed. Really sleepy now!`

threw her kisses ;6:25 AM

Yesterday, while we were playing the game. There was this one question, what is one the greatest fear I had. And the fear was confessing to my crush. But it is so true. I will never have the courage to do it. Because I will never be ready and I want the moment to be the best. And make sure everything turns out well. So I will never do it. Dare me to do other things, I will. But this I will just not do it for anything and I will be fuming mad if you screwed it up for me. Yeah. This is so random. But it’s my greatest fear!

Today , just stayed home and rot again. See the word again. This week I have been home twice. It’s super boring to be at home and seriously staying home it’s a total waste. I will be a total bum sticking to the com and disturbing my mum. Like no life. Then napping at real odd hours. And mum cooks all the dishes I do not like eating and then I have to starve because I simply fussy about my food . And make her whip up something for me so I will not die and starve from hunger. And staying home , makes me eat all the junks also. A total no-no! Yay! I’m so relieved. No more stay homes for this week and the following weeks .

threw her kisses ;10:52 PM

I had gone back to school in the afternoon to get my missy watch for the clinical attachment. Then , after which met with the gang near Bukit Batok and then travelled down to Orchard to eat Pepper Lunch. I have craving for it for sometime. Finally satisfied it ! Then after which walked over to PS , and then walked around till we meet Sammie after work . And last minute , SM cancelled her date with her. So sian. And so easily she can sms saying that we can meet up another time . Forget it man! If you want , you organise and plan an outing . I out of this business of planning and last-minute cancelling ! Its very fustrating! Nvm.:)

But the night was so fun with all the games and the company of friends. Though I wished the group was bigger and the whole of goofy gobbers were there. Neverthless , it was fun! Minds cafe' is a great place for a gathering. Yeah! Looking forward to a tonning session with the goofy gobbers! Here we come again ! Lalala!`

Now , I so so want the donuts from the

Donut factory !

Sammie , when are we queuing up ?

threw her kisses ;11:58 PM

Tml was supposed to meet some friends to go watch F4. But then , it is cancelled ! Lyke no mood !` I do not feel like going for movies anytime soon also. Like so upsetting!`

But I am so looking forward to tml evening , time with the goofy gobbers ! Its ladies nyte! ` Yeah .

threw her kisses ;9:51 PM

Totally sian. Like nothing to do today. Just stayed home and rot. Was suppose to go out with a friend earlier but I was kind of no mood to go out . So I cancelled. I just feel like doing nothing at all . This week is the last week of holidays and the following week is the clinical attachment.

I can't wait to meet the goofy gobbers and shalini this week. Like the only joy for this week. I am so looking forward to it ! =)

threw her kisses ;5:44 PM

Happy Fathers' Day!

Just came home from the SMT family day. I din't want to go initially but I was persuaded and bribed by my mum in going for it. It wasn't so bad afterall. Bt i will not say I enjoyed myself. But it was just fine.

I saw my dad play. He played all the kampong games like five stones , chaptei , throwing darts , hopstoch and tops. And then we played teasure hunt together. My sis disappered with my other cousin. So it was just , my dad , mum , me and 3 other cousins of mine forming team. We are team 501 . We won the first prize for the treasure hunt. Like so fun!` Then , got to see my granddad dance in the stage. And I got to see my little cousin , I miss her lots. She is just so cute and chubby. Then I went cycling and fly kite with her. And she tried to do inline-skating which was super funny , she couldn't balance herself and she kept falling down . So cute !` She gets up and then she goes down again in no time. Lol

My dad , little cousin and uncle doing the limbo dance station (:

Granddad doing his moves on stage. He is 75 years old , okies ! (:

Dad playing the five stones (:

Dad doing his limbo dance (:

My little cousin in her gear for in-line skating. So cute!`

My little cousin & ME!

Ohlalala!~ It has been a great day! <3>

threw her kisses ;8:52 PM

I have submitted the SGH sponsorship form saying that I have accepted the offer and mailed it out to their HR . Yeah. I will be the staff nurse in SGH in 3 yrs time. (:

And I have finally joined the rest for YF today. Though it felt little weird and awakward. But it was okay. I just felt fine. And I met him like after so long since the last episode of things that happened. Upon seeing him , I was like waiting for him to say something. But which he never and I couldn't bear any longer and i striked the conversation. See , its me again! Then the after episode of the conversation , upsets me the most ! Hiaz .

But, quite happy that I had some time with BL during dinner. I miss her lots. She is a great discliper.

threw her kisses ;9:58 PM

OMG! The goofy gobbers are going to gather again. Its so exciting and I am awaiting for tuesday. But just sad that Porky and Da Ka jie will not be joining us this time. But I guess its alright. Still the majority are going , yeah . So it still spells FUN. Though , I will miss them. But I can't let go of opportunities like these when most are coming ryte? Many more outings will come. Just keeping fingers crossed . :)

I love every single one of you . <3

Goofy Gobbers Rockz!

threw her kisses ;11:56 PM

Like finally , I'm home after the common test like I never go anywhere . Just rotting at home . Feeling all so dejected and hungry! Because all my friends are busy and are going away for short holiday. Like shalini is gng away tonight , i am suppose to be going with her but then my parents did not allow me to go this time . So sad ryte? And hungry because there isn't any munchies at home and so I am here all hungry! So sad cn.

threw her kisses ;4:43 PM

Like finally man , I went back to church after a long break about a month. Met with CD in the morning for my patch near my hse mac and we were in the new issue about the baptism of the Holy Spirit. And then after patch , walked over to meet my parents and we went over to Little India. Then my mum sponsored me to go do my threading and then she promised me to go eat at Madan's . I so called love eating there. The place nt that very crowded and plus the drinks are fantastic there. Very chilled. I'm like it that way. Everytime , I go eat there , I feel so bloated and sick. But then , it is super yummlicious.

Then came hme , and napped awhile and then evening go for my foundation class . We looked into the issue of tongues in acts. Something which I was cluless as a young Ct when I was asked about it by a friend. I am glad that atleast now I am looking into issue of tongues and the filling of the Holy Spirit. I always had the misconception that speaking of tongues = charismatic church , but now i realize its the fulliment of the promise of the filling of the holy spirit, a historical beginning of a church and a pivotal event. Yeah.

Oh yeah , this coming friday 22 June, To9 is having BBQ at ECP. Hopefully , all the To9 peeps can make it ! I hope it will be success! Excited!` =)

threw her kisses ;10:25 PM

Thanks for the gift .

It is beautiful.

threw her kisses ;11:40 PM

Today , I had gone back to MI . Met pammy just outside MI gates and then walk into the school compound. Go and just collect my MT cert and hers both MT and projectwork cert. The clerk in the office damn grumpy lor , go collect also , make so much noise. I felt like diggin a hole and hidding inside till she finds the cert. She was making way too much of noise , scolding us and telling us that we are so irresponsible. I was darn pissed with her then . I was like the cert was only issued this yr and only just a month ago. She kept insisting with me that the cert was issued last yr 2006. Goodness Gracious , I took the paper in 2006 , and then so fast sia , the cert is issued then. I kept insisting my stand then I realized quite stupid to aruge with just an adamant clerk. So I just nvm then when to sign the document to acknowlegde that I have collected and then I was able to point out the whole lot of them also just collected this year and only recently also. Then she like no face , she kept silent. I also never make a fuss just walked out of school and even thanked her. I am nt just a discourteous person afterall. She was the one still nt admitting to her mistake. Hiaz. Afterall , noone likes to feeling of losing face. So much just at MI. Oh yar! How can I forget the journey to MI was the most mind-blowing experience , I was spoilt with choice in getting to MI. Nvm . But it was a total waste of time.

After the whole episode of collecting cert , me and pammy went Swensens for snack time coz it was past lunch time and then too early for dinner. She was just nice to keep me accompany because I was only meeting DJ at 6pm at Orchard. Actually , I insisted she follows me , coz all she wanted to do anyway was to nap at home. She is such an adorable piggy. Love her lots and Misses her lots.

Then bussed down to town , and walked over to mrt ctrl stn , and waited for DJ. He has become so much darker. Hopefully ! Next time , when I meet him , he isn't any close to my colour. Lol. Dun tan so much la , buddy! Not very good for the skin and prone to skin cancer . Then dun blame it upon karma. Lol. Then accompanied him as he went to do little shopping. And then , soon we became aimless , then I was like so wanted to watch MEN IN WHITE , then I suggested to him. And he was like , " okay!" and then we go watch it . The show was damn hiliarious. Quite a comedy man or every much a comedy! Lol. Then went over to borders to look for a friend . But he wasn't there but managed to check out for Sammie the harry porter pre-order thingy.

Here is the details , you will have to deposit $10 and there aren't any privilleges in ordering with Borders except for the contests that you can participate in if you order with Borders. Yeah. Nothing that much alluring.Nt sure abt the staff discount. Because din't manage to meet him and he doesn't reply my smses. Maybe you can try.

A great day with great friends. =)

threw her kisses ;11:35 PM

I'm so friggin pissed. This is how much I mean to you ryte. Thanks . For all these years of friendship.I seriously now understand how friendship can be mistaken if it is taken so vaguely. Thanks for making me understand. Wow! Why am I bothering over you? I shldn't. You do not deserve any part of me. I'm sorry for all these years except for NOW .

I am in no mood now .

threw her kisses ;8:02 PM

Had a great time catching up with my real close buddy from secondary school at the airport and having a really late lunch at the Swensens. But it was just wonderful with a close friend. I really miss her lots :) She will be leaving for Canada for her student exchange programme in August.

threw her kisses ;8:19 PM

SO ADORABLE , CAN! I'M SO LOVING IT! <3

threw her kisses ;10:57 AM

I do not if I should even me blogging this down. Fearing that I may stumble some. But I have no avenue to put this thoughts down except for this blog. I feel that I am dropping out of faith. Like I finding really bothersome in going church and the endless meetings that I have to go and plan for actitvties and trying really hard to get involved with lives. I'm like super sian of doing all this. And plus the weekday night foundation class . I am dreading everything . And there goes my weekends , the time where I can spend with my family and friends.

~~F.Y.I : I have been away from church from the past 1mth and I have minimum contact with anyone of them.~~

~~I seriously do not know. God , please speak to me tonight. Let me hear your voice. I need too.~~

threw her kisses ;7:45 AM

Just returned home after a small gathering with the Jaguar . Only 4 jaguars turned up with 1 Jaguar GL. We went for lunch together at Far east and then later 2 jaguars left. Then the 3 of us , went over to catch Shrek 3! Initally , i din wanna catch the show , since I promised Bel and gang that we were watching together . But then we were so aimless , then I was like just watch it lo and then I will watch it again. Because i dun really mind watching shrek3! again. Coz it was definate I will love it and enjoy it that i will go for a next time round! So need nt worry , Bel!

Then while waiting for the Jaguars , I met my sec school friend. It was great meeting her . And then laters , we walked over to Borders. Then , I met my MI guy buddy , he is the still the same old guy , keeps hitting me and I miss the whole bunch of MI peeps . Especially 05S6.

threw her kisses ;9:54 PM

Just returned home awhile go frm the HS delegates gathering at ECP . The initial part of getting to the Carpark F , and the pit was tedious . It was a super long walk. Then upon reaching there , nothing much to do also , just go stick with the rest of the Jaguars and then our GL was busy setting up the fire and we so mistakenly thought he was darn pissed with us because most were not gng for the Jaguar outing tml. Then he called out to us and then we joined him and chit-chat with him , and later took turns to barcuque the food , and served him . Since he insisted . Then after it was quite alright . Just laughing and crapping. Then we realized the whole HS delegates gathering became so jaguar-orientated , and thus we spill over to the next pit where there were others. Joined them and crapped away. Got to know the other new HS delegates !~ They are damn cool ! Friendly bunch of peeps! We just joked and crapped as we stand near the fire barcuqing the marshmallows and later gathered to the centre of both pit for some time for fun! Running and getting to know the rest of them. Socialising!~ It was afterall not a bad idea! No regrets!

HS DELEGATES ,

WE ARE MADE FOR IT!

threw her kisses ;12:22 AM

Common test like just ended yesterday like finally man! The four days of common test were just so sucky , I was held tightly and firmly by the clutches of the not so friendly lecture manuels . It was total scary and frightening experience! But yeah finally , I am let go of it as of now! Wait till it strikes me again. Till then , I shall enjoy ! :) And another monster waiting and hiding in its closet ready to strike " THE RESULTS' MONSTER" . I have placed a padlock for the closet. Yeah. So it can have fun trying to unlock itself before it ' Boo!' at me. Okies , i think the entry is so random . And crappy , just like how I am feeling now , crappy!

I am so bloated. I just ate 3 slices of bread coated with butter-strawberry for my BREAKFAST.

It totally stinks! I am already in holidays and I have no plans . Shucks!

threw her kisses ;11:06 AM

One more night. Jia You!

Today ,was kind of dramatic . I felt very nervous and so uneasy abt the MIC paper. I was so least prepared for the paper. There was soo much to remember and like too little of me wanted to remember all those stuffs. So like part of me was already decided I was going to fail the paper. And during the paper , minutes after the start paper , many heads just go pop pop hitting the table. It was so discouraging , can. I was like shucks! I am gone too. I kept staring into the space , trying very much to recall whatever I studied . All the information were so unfriendly. Nothing to cheer me! If possible to pass the paper , I will be the happiest! Though a little part of me will regret it still because some say the paper was rather easy and manageable . So it will be a pity! Yeah! Nvm:)

Happier note , holiday is just a day away and tommorrow after the paper the practical group will be gathering at Shaofei's House for time of food and play. And we break off for holidays from there for two weeks and then Dang! Clinical attachment. Wow!` Everything is just so fast-paced! Still catching my breath man!

threw her kisses ;8:48 PM

Today was the first paper. Am i confident of the first paper? I am not sure. I thought it was kind of do-able but I made some stupid careless mistakes. Annoying! It wasn't much of memory work but rather plenty of application questions for the short answer questions. I just hoping for decent grade for the paper. Keeping fingers crossed. One paper down. Three more to go. Jia you , peeps! Gonna go study for PAS now!

And , thanks for all the best wishes for the papers. Love ya all ! <3

threw her kisses ;6:41 PM

I'm so hungry for marks. And I am not satisfied with the marks I got for the past quizzes though i passed it. I expected more , the quizzes were rather easy and manageable but it just me who din't study. Sianz. Common test starts tml. Here I am , just about to start revision for the papers. Shiong la , Nages! Stop sitting on ya butt. Jia you , peeps!

threw her kisses ;10:52 AM

Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

Deuteronomy 8:11-14

This verse was something which my sis was sharing to me last night when we were out to buy dinner. It did not strike to me that I was forgetting or rather forsaking my God. I think it was indeed a good reminder for myself in the midst of my busy-ness . I am ought to be reminded and only to be dwelling in the house of the lord and rather not in the temporal busy-ness and fun, BECAUSE GOD IS GOD , AND HE IS THE PROVIDER.

threw her kisses ;5:43 PM

Day by Day

Day by day and with each passing moment , strength I find to meet my trials here;Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment, I've no cause for worry or for fear.He whose heart is kind beyond all measure give unto each day what he deems best-Lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure, minging toil with peace with rest.

Everyday the Lord himself is near me, with a special mercy for each hour; All my cares he wants to bear, to cheer me , he whose name is Counselor and Power.The protection of his child and treasure is a change that himself he laid;"As your days, your strength shall be in measure, this the pledge to me he made.

Help me then in every tribulation so trust thy promise, O Lord,That I lose not faith's sweet consolation offered me within thy holy Word. Help me, Lord when toil and trouble meeting , e'er to take , as from a father's hand, One by one, the days the moments fleeting , till I reach the promised land.

threw her kisses ;10:51 PM