I'll still believe

The threatening-skies! Only the faint hearted will walk away. And even the threatening skies will leave with the moving clouds! But the brave hearted ones who stand through will sure have heaps of fun!` Like us :)

threw her kisses ;11:47 PM

The CMBIO paper wasn't that bad afterall. It was still a manageable paper , hopefully can pass it. Because those stuffs I focused on did come out but just that I was careless when I wrote down my answers. Hopefully , my carelessness doesn't cost me much.

And after paper ended , I was caught in a dilemma whether I should go out and hang out with my polyfriends , go home or find Sammie to go out with me. But , i knew much earlier that i did not want to go out with my polyfriends because I will be meeting them the next day for the beach outing . Hence , I wanted to go home and rest since the night I have been studying or go find Samantha to go out because I haven't seen her sometime since her mugging session. So I decided to sms Sam to find out if she was free and wanted to watch "Enchanted" with me. She was free and did not mind watching " Enchanted" . So I caught the movie " Enchanted " with her at Cineleisure.

The movie was good. Though I was kind of intially upset with the ending because of the twist in the happily ever after ending of the movie because of the switch of the partners . But later when I thought deeply into the storyline, it had a very profound meaning to it. It showed the character Nancy who lived in reality falling for the fairytale character , Prince Edward , and she forsaking the reality to live a life in fairytale by losing all connection with the reality , the throwing of her handphone into the ground. And the fairy character , Giselle who lived the fairytale woods falling for the reality character, Robert , a lawyer and a single father and choosing to start a life with him and his daughter , Morgan. The twist in the storyplot portrayed the every girl's wish to live a fairytale life in today's modern city. But at the sametime , drawing a line that the wish is not reality, by portaying the fairytale character has moved on to reality. And we , who are in the real world have to live a life in reality and not in fairytale world as fairytale has moved on to the reality era.

After the movie , we met up with Sheryl and aimlessly went around Far East and , went for dinner together. And took some pictures with the Christmas light up. Hahaha. Only Sam and me though!` And then did some shopping at COTTON ON & COTTON BODY. COTTON BODY is way much better than COTTON ON.

And I bumped into E and his gf , twice. He waved at me. He is sucha hotstuff!`

threw her kisses ;11:18 PM

Tommorrow is the most hated paper by many. THE CMBIO PAPER! Its so shitty ! I tried reading three chapters before I went to take a nap earlier now I really got to study it and sink in into my cerebrum. Wish me great luck to pass this paper , the hopes are very faint about passing this paper because I am clueless from the start till at the present moment. I need the enlightment. Very soon , going to medidate on the CMBIO lect notes and textbook. Before leaving on my enlightment journey. On the happier note , its the last paper and I will be so-called be on holidays after it . But but ... I will be on two weeks clinical attachment. But who cares , school's out!` Peace.

threw her kisses ;5:22 PM

This week is exam week. I have already sat for 2 papers and a practical exam. Two more papers and I am done for common test. I thankful the past two papers were not that challenging for the little studying I did , I still could manage.

But I am really not confident about the grade for the paper. I have no one to blame but myself. I had been slacking much this term. I need to so get back my zeal. I need to get back my focus . I have been lately dwelling too much in my emotions and moods. Everytime , I keep dwelling into those , a tinge of sadness hits me .

I want time for myself to settle and compose myself before I find myself in a deeper mess!`

Time to get back studying!` Need to be 101% discliplined and focused!`

threw her kisses ;6:28 PM

hello world.I`m nages sis again,nages had first day exam todae.she pricked benedicts hand and he is dying, so sad, so young and he is dying.

I`m gng away on camp,so there wun be any updates on missy in studying anymore. so sad uhh.Miss me okay? haha dream abt me, if miss me sms me.So much ironies, the guy she pricked is dying, yur updates abt the dying boys is gng away on camp.0-o hopefully he`s alive and kicking. buahaah. lala,okay.

be a good gal study hard. I want you to be numba one. :D

threw her kisses ;4:56 AM

Lets scream Mag-a-attack

hello world.I`m not nages really, i`m her sis, since missy is on a mag-a-attack i shall help that wee wee blog heehaahoo. Lets see what is wee wee doing, she is studying alot actually but is getting distracted by yours truly and of cos the computer.

&&Please don`t go near her cos she`s drunk on redbull and you might not understand what she is blah blah blah-ing about. Tmr is her nsl practical exam and a fon paper she`s drunk today, how ironic.

While something ironic is going on you might want to know about a few things, nages needs a whole lot of redbull, pens and pencil which is lying around th house, and some biscuit sticks to go about lazing ard and studying. Those are few study tips you may take under your own risk.Coming bak to now, missy is happily lying down in a bed and highlighting endlessly, i really wonder how she can highlight things so neatly.

she`s even daydreaming about a movie they are gng to show on tv and about gng shopping, of cos not forgetting abt going to the beach on friday.& there she goes again randomly singing in a stinging voice.

i think thats about it. I shall update soon about the missy who-lost-her-mind while studying. thank you for your time.

threw her kisses ;3:16 PM

I was just speaking with her . And I came to hear from her , you had asked her about me. I'm gald that you had remembered me in your conversation with her. But deep down , I am upset that you did not know much about me now. Especially when I did tell you about it . Just that you made no effort to remember the details. And I upset you recalled the moments I had with you as" just hangouts together". To me all the moments are the most treasured ones. Maybe I was wrong to expect you to feel the same. Afterall , I am nobody to you now. I have become very much a topic of conversation to you among our common friends .

Well! :)

threw her kisses ;10:56 PM

I proved something to myself . I can be independent. I am definately proud of myself. I attended today's lecture all by myself and sat all alone in the back of the lecture hall despite knowing my friends aren't coming to today's lecture. I realized that I can be independent and I need not rely on my friends. Well done! And thanks to Sammie for keeping me accompany thru the lecture via sms . She helped me survive through the loneliness. But I kind of regret going to today's lecture because she did not drop any hints for the common test and that was my main aim and motivation of going for today's lesson. Neverthless , I managed to cover 4 topics for revision in the midst of travelling and in the lecture , which i doubt I could have done if I was at home, because I will be a lazy piggy sleeping.

So, in the end it was a good decision to go for lecture ! (:

And , later met mum and sis , to go Vivocity. I wanted to go and get my shoes for my attachment. I finally bought the crocs. Its pretty comfortable , hopefully can use the shoes for my attachment. (:

threw her kisses ;8:13 PM

Today. I finally met up with Jasmine . She asked me about the sms I sent her earlier. She was okay with it and she felt that it was God's intervention to allow her to know what I was experiencing. Haha. I felt the same way to it also. Though I was uncomfortable with the fact the sms was sent to her wrongly. But I guess it was alright. Then she went on to ask me on my decision and what had led me to my decision. I wasn't prepared to answer her , I told her that I "don't know!" for the many things she asked me. But deep down , the reason would have been that I just wanted to put myself back into the throne than allowing God to change me. Its like the feeling that I am seeing less of me that frightens me that I want back my self than allowing God in his rightful throne. And I think this brings me back to the fundamentals , my walk with God , I can say my walk with God is really in the pits. God must have been so upset and disappointed with me , but I find myself too weak to be pleasing him . I'm spiritually dried. I'm physically tired. I'm sian-fied.

And I'm not prepared for the consquences. My only cry " Restore me back to HIM!`". My only prayer would be that the "only cry "will get louder in my life.

threw her kisses ;11:35 PM

I somewhat having hatred or biasness towards this lecturer . I did not like his approach to us in our first tutorial and practical lesson . And since then , I never really enjoyed his lessons and I dread his lessons. But I still do attend his lessons but just that I keep silent during his lessons , somewhat trying to avoid much communication with the lecturer. And he has noticed my behaviour and he said that he thinks I am shy and I do ignore him. And so every time , he sees me he makes some stupid comments and my friends started teasing me with him. Its' kind of irritating . But I give hoots about it . As it is stupid and childish. And today , my friends and I were walking out from SIM , then he came , I think I did look at him and smiled but he turned around and said that I had ignored him. I think I have given him the wrong impression as being "dao" but who cares what impression I leave with him afterall the concern I have as of now is the clear the module and get my grades. Though I understand its important to have a healthy relationship between lecturer and student. But sometimes , it is just difficult . Personality clashes . I experienced this in MI too . We will encounter difficult people at different phases of our life , and I expect to just pass by it . I think its matter of personal survial skills. And don't wish to be bothered much by it now.

And common test is next week. I haven't started revising yet.

I need to be on the top 10% of the Director's List this semster also.

threw her kisses ;7:58 PM

Lancer Meets Nages!`

threw her kisses ;11:35 AM

I simply can't believe myself . I sent out the wrong sms to the person whom I had been avoiding, and the sms was in regards to the person and the matter. I was in total disbelief that I could do such a terrible mistake . But I know eventually , I still do have to tell the person but now I am just not ready with an answer for her and the rest. And now she is waiting for reply from me for that sms. I do not know how to reply her and I need to tactful , trying not to be offensive and rude in my reply but putting forth my ground . Ain't I marvlous! I totally amazed with myself. Shitbags!`

threw her kisses ;12:11 AM

Freakingly pissed. Can you imagine? Tommorrow , I am having sports and wellness and I come home to find that my mum just had washed my track shoes and it was soakingly wet. It was just the first . And then awhile later , I go to pack my bag , I couldn't find my blue t-shirt and then I ask my mum where it is ? It isn't washed yet. It was in the laundry basket. That was it!` I was super pissed , because I had put my clothes to wash last wednesday itself . I'm understanding okies , i know it was deepavali eve , so i did not bother pestering her to get my shoes washed. I know some will be asking why is your mum washing it and not me. It is because I am so dependent on her and I am a spoilt-brat. Whatever!` My shirt isn't washed and she shifted the whole blame to me saying I had to take responsibility of my own . You do not tell me when its too late, and I just went and washed my shirt and its soakingly wet too now!` And I used the hair dryer to dry till now the hair dryer is spoilt!` . It is super shitty and I am super irritated to the max!` Arghhhhhh. And my stupid dad is irritating me at the moment. I am tired . He and the stupid issue!` Sigh!`

threw her kisses ;10:15 PM

Week 5 . Semster 2 . Term 1 .
Dang! Dang! Dang!
Week 7 . COMMON TEST!`

threw her kisses ;9:54 PM

Firstly , I would like to wish everyone " Happy Deepavali!". And would like to thank all those who greeted me too.

I had a great time yesterday . I enjoyed all the good glorious food . And my grandad's cooking was the best. I went for second serving of his prawn briyani . It was simply irresistable ! And I earned " ang baos" , and my grandad went to the bank and got us the new twenty- dollar note. It was such a sweet gesture , i thought . I am not going to spend the money . And earned more "ang baos" at (my grandma sis )granny's place , my paternal grandad's place and my aunt's place. My family and I were simply feasting on the good glorious food , and watching all the special programmes lined up on tv , and catching up with relatives and cousins.

And I was so glad that Azeena called me from Canada to just wish me and my family . I was simply touched by her thoughtfulness. She was in overseas yet she called to wish me , and my fellow other friends in Singapore , mentioning a two , never bothered to wish neither thru a call or sms . It's such a pity to see how we have moved on with our lives! But I have no regrets . I am glad , to know atleast I have one that truly cares.

And oh my! I tell you that wearing saree is totally a no-no! Though you look good in it but moving around in it , a "BIG NO"!`

threw her kisses ;1:31 AM

I am so glad that I found my hamburger earring. It has been missing nearly a week , and then today I find it . It was really a joy to find something you have lost and searched hi -low and when hopes are so nearly lost , you see it. It's wonderful , the feeling.

Yesterday , went with the family and grandma to Sentosa. It was the Home Team's Family Day. Played the telematch with dad and his collegues. Our team won the first prize . And then followed by it , went to visit the attractions , went with mum and grandma to the underwater world . Dad and sis did not follow , since they have been there before. Followed by , went to ride the luge with sis. It was pretty scary at certain point . Especially when the wind blew against our legs , and the scary part , I wasn't sitting in correct position so I was not in safety lock. Lol. Dad, mum and grandma came behind us in the luge , because mum was scared of heights , she sat inbetween them . I am so proud of you , mum. She never gave in to her fear. Then followed by , went over to the Merlion. We had a bird eye's view of Sentosa at the head of the Merlion , and took a group photo shot at the mouth of the Merlion. And the final stop , the cable car ride to Mt. Faber . Mum was so frightened and dad had to force her into it. Pity mum! But it wasn't that scary. Grandma was so sporting , she wanted to try despite feeling uneasy about heights , and that what convinced mum to take the ride. Lol.

Then alighted at Mt. Farber , walked over flights of steps to grandma's house . Rested and ate at grandma's house , and left for Little India , mum had to change her suit because it didn't fit her well and then bought dinner and came home. We did not stay behind to watch the performance at Little India. Though initially , we wanted but all of us were tired and dad was rushing saying it was crowded. Yeah.

I will upload the photos in another post.

threw her kisses ;1:03 PM