I'll still believe

I am freaking pissed to the so many people I have to be accountable for. I need some space and freedom. Please do not start freaking out if you dun see me for a week or so, I am just tied down with things at home, which requires some attention. So dun freaking come and keep on bothering me. I will come when I am done with what requires my attention. I will most appreciate it if I am just left alone. I need some space and time for reflection as things have ended quite prematurely. But I won’t bother explaining it to everyone, so freaking dun come and ask me what it is about. I will just give cold shoulder and shun you away. I dun deserve attention and I do not want any though. So freaking go n care about the others and leave me alone. On a final note, I ain’t free on Nov 1 , Its Deepavali , dun freaking come and ask me if I am free to join u guys in the morning or later in the day . I dun celebrate like you guys, I dun sit at home and sit my butt infront of television but I am out in visitation to my grandparents place. The whole day is OUT. Please do understand, my family comes first, all activities can hold. So freaking go away from me . I had enough !!!!!!!

threw her kisses ;8:56 AM

Goodbye , my friends! It seems very hard to say especially when the times we had together were so memorable . All those banging sessions and all the trips to town and feasting together. I am gonna miss those times with you guys. I am sad it has to end so abruptly and so prematurely. But I sincerely hope we could be still be friends outside school. We can bring our friendship into another dimension. You guys will say it will never be the same but ultimately it will be all abt making efforts to making it the same.Its best for me to leave , its time for me to break away from the "A" level academic structure. It has been really tough year for me . There were countless time , I was breaking down from the stress. I need resorted to stoopid things to overcome my stress. It was all not worth. The mere paper and grade chasing isn't doing me any good. But I won't regret any of it . It was taught me something. Atleast , I have some scope of "A-level" subjects. At least , i ain't ignorant but I had acquired knowledge. But , it isn't enough for me to continue on . I need to pursue something on which my heart lies to and passion lies on for me to excel.

threw her kisses ;9:44 PM

I have been blog-hopping alot lately. While doing so , I came across many blogs , of all blogs i came across many are just lamenting how toot their life has been ! But at the back of mind , I am thinking , they are much better in many ways but then I also wonder the others too feel likewise of mine. I really do not know , maybe everyone are having their piece of trash in life. Or maybe we can't apperciate little happiness and little satisfication. I have no idea! I ain't very much enjoying my life though , even though things are little smooth and settled. Maybe they ain't , but because i have swept them beneath . There are days , I am having the best moments and days where everything returns. I wish I could live those best moments but somewhat reality doesn't speak much about it. I guess we were just have to flow in with the flow of the moments. The turblences are so great , you might even find yourself crumpling. Everything seems to hold no sense and meaning... Life is a facade stage. So put on ya props and costumes and act on it.

threw her kisses ;5:39 PM

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threw her kisses ;5:21 PM