I have finally did my deepavali shopping. I was suppose to do it last wed after school , but then my mood was ruined and my parents were busy cleaning up the house also . So decided to postpone it to a later day. Then we went yesterday instead. But only me , my mum and sis. I bought a saree. I am going to wear saree this deepavali. Suprised? I jus wanted to wear something different this year , and saree shall it be. Since all the young in my family have already wore saree the past year. And I the oldest , yet to wear! Abit odd.
I bought a purple saree with gold embrioderies . And I having a halter neck blouse . Sexaye!` Hopefully , my dad doesn't say anything. He usually makes some noise if the clothes is rather revealing.Keeps fingers crossed. But mum was okay with it , though. Hence, hope she will help me convince dad if he makes noise. Lol.
And I drew henna in my hand in the bazzar yesterday. I was tempted to do it , after I was discussing about having a tatoo with my mum. She is agst it , and I am half-way into convincing her to allow me to do tatoo. Hopefully , she can agree to it. I wanna have one in my ankle area. I think its the safest area , and i will not get into much trouble because of it.
threw her kisses ;12:38 PM
I finally come to realization , maybe its not really safe to count on people to agree with you all the time. I just expected too much . Its afterall the survival of an indidviual and NOT a group. It is because each an every individual has their own perspective and background . And I know my perspective and background is different from the MAJORITY. I have already experienced the cost of going with the flow for much long and I do not want the occurrence of history repeating itself again. Maybe thats why my reaction was much more louder , I have to say I have nothing against him , as an indidividual , I am not complaining about his egoistic nature here , but I am complaining to his teaching style and manner , it is not effective , it is hindering my learning . I am fed up because I have not able to grasp his lessons , it just makes me feel lousy.He makes attempt to see the bigger picture to the things we are taught , but sometimes the very details also complicates our learning , because it becomes information overload , because most of the time , the information is rather new than just recalled information. So we trying to process it and then another information comes in . The cycle returns , and then you simply just want to shut down and stop concentrating , because it just too much. And , oh my ! Asians are rather shy people , they don't really voice out their questions in a big lecture hall with over 100 plus of eyes staring at you , so its difficult to voice out that" you are too fast and we need time to process through it." Like oh my right! Maybe I expecting too much of him to know what we are thinking despite the nosiy lecture halls and blur stares and looks to communicate with him, so I rather take charge of my own learning.
And I was totally folly to be upset about it for so long and even crying. :)
Though I can't promise I am okay , but I will make sure I am okay.
threw her kisses ;10:38 PM
I think she was right with her advice , about not going and confessing to him my feelings. I do not want to scare him off and plus lose my friendship with him. And I think with moments like this , I really have to stop and use my heart rather than my heart. Though these matters concerns the heart. I'm thankful that I spoke with my girls and they gave me the best advice. If not , I will be totally be lost and clueless.
And oh my! School is shitty with the new modules. And with some egoistic lecturer teaching the modules. I can truly understand that he is the bright one , and he was exposed to all we are learning at much younger his life but sadly we are just being exposed to it and thus we are totally new to the knowledge , and our apologies to unable to recall what was previously taught in secondary schools and for myself , in MI. We never paid much attention to its relevance and link to the many concepts to our life . We learnt only what was to be examinable and chucked it straight after the exams ended. Sigh
And school is totally tiring. The days are early and long. Like no enough rest at all. Every morning , I am a grumpy . I am picking fights with my mum and keep complaining that I'm tired to my friends. I so do not like it at all. It's just not me. I am the happy one not the grumpy one. Lol.
threw her kisses ;9:00 PM
I am not feeling too good. I am feeling a period of down-ness . Like a sense of withdrawal. It is not really a good feeling at all. I am clueless in why I am having the sudden emo-ness. I miss crying strangely.
threw her kisses ;8:03 PM
I can't help but to complain. I feel super irritated in the way the CMIB tutorial was conducted. Like once we are in the room already , the teacher was like demanding us to get our bags away and all we could do was give a blaffed expressions as to why ? And he goes , put your bags away and only if you do so , will I issue the paper in very strict tone . We are still baffled and worse still , disorientated. But he gives no care to hear us out and just places the paper on the table and shouts across " it's a quiz , so stop talking!". Leaving no ground for us , but to just remain in our baffleness and disorientation for the whole lessson. I was totally lost for the one hour atleast. He could have made it better , by taking things slowly and trying another approach. Rather than rushing through and making us feel kind of lousy at the very first tutorial session. The statement first impression holds true for all cirumstances . Like now , I am thinking CMIB is like OMG!`with relation to today's tutorial session. :(
threw her kisses ;5:03 PM
I find that I am developing feelings for him , but I am not sure if the feelings are healthy because it can be just a venue for me to get over HIM. But lately , i can say I have very much focused on him rather than HIM. However I find that I am very much comfortable with him rather HIM . I do not know. :(
I hope things will go well :) I shall wait.
threw her kisses ;6:59 PM
It's back to school . First lesson of the day was CMIB lecture. Solid 2 hours. But wasn't much in the concentration mood , just felt like catching up with the girls. It was really long since I heard from the girls. And we started our "msn chat" , on our CA experience , since the lecturer was walking around , and wasn't possible to enage in verbal communication. Quite fun though!` And we went to SIM to eat, I can't possibly believe the girls missed SIM food! Lol. I am glad to be back to school and with the girls .
And the new notes and textbooks are burning a hole into my pocket , they are super expensive! Today , i paid $32.2o for incomplete set of notes , still yet to buy CMIB lect notes and need to buy pharmacology textook which costs $51.60 , and plus all the loose notes for NSL. Oh man!
There goes my mum nagging at my spending over the holidays. :X
Happy schooling!`
threw her kisses ;10:03 PM
I was super excited yesterday , the thought of just hanging out with the girls . It brings so much smiles. I love them lots. They are the craziest bunch of girls. Hahaha.
I am waiting for the pictures from Yappie .... :)
threw her kisses ;4:09 PM
She buzzed me online after sometime , and then I was thinking if I should even reply her . And I decided to be nice and reply her , and her second reply came " why is my reply , hostile ?". I was wondering did she just buzz me to pick a fight with me . A simple " yeah .. wassup?'' can be interepted as being hostile. Oh my! Thankfully , she did not catch me at the wrong time , I was still nice and apologised if I sounded hostile , and made it clear I wasn't hostile or any crap. And the entire convo we had died shortly , after she confirmed with me that I rebonded my hair as she found that my hairstyle looks different in the pictures in msn. Like wth!` I seriously do not know where she has placed our friendship , on me or things around me that is ever changing , is quite clear and obvious that is based on the latter as evident by the convo. It is saddening!`
Neverthless , I have many other great friends who have placed friendship on me :) Thank you to those bunch of terrific friends. I will always value the friendship , you definately mean alot more to me ! Loves.
threw her kisses ;11:50 PM
Today was supposed to go out with poly friends . But seemed like nobody was in the mood to go out also , because all the response I got from them was anything , and then abit sian to do all the decisions myself , and so dropped the idea going out with them. Anyway , I will be seeing them soon also in school and there are many more days we can go out besides these holiday , there is school days :). Hopefully.
So today , I went out with sister and mum. My sister's last paper , so she is like gonna have holidays soon all the way till next yr jan. So shiok! While , my holiday ends . Like so sad cn.
Anyway, we went to dine at Gayathri Restaurant. The cute nepalese guy was there. I think he is promoted to waiter because he took our orders today. I was super happy , and I was kind of shy and anxious. Crazyae ! Too bad , shalu wasn't there. Stupid sis say I got bad taste. Idiot! It wasn't too bad dining there. Camwhored as usual. I like the ambience there. My mum kept naggin at me , to stop taking pictures. She was just too consicious of her surrounding. Sadly , mum din't really like the food there. But sis was alrites with the food. Though, I must say it was little off frm the first time i ate , the food wasn't tasting good as I expected it to be.
After the meal , went to look at some saris , though of wearing sari this deepavali . Or maybe cheongsam. I want to be unique , you see. And then went over to Bugis , to just window- shop , but ended up shooping , as usual , nothing new. Lol
Let the pictures speak the unspoken .......
threw her kisses ;10:32 PM
threw her kisses ;7:13 PM
Today , morning I met with Sam to go watch " Balls of Furry" in Lido. And I forgot to bring my handphone along with me and my ipod batt died on me. And you imagine what I was in for , when I planned to go to the saloon later on my own to do my hair , which is going to be super long. Boredom!`. The movie wasn't much as I expected it to be , it was rather a so-so movie , though some scenes were funny. And after movie , me and sam went to lunch at Pepper Lunch , and sam wanted to try the new menu " spaghetti with salmon", the new menu was not too bad but it was super salty like as if you spilled one pkt of salt into it. And then , we wanted to know if the menu really tasted salty , we called for the manager to give feedback on the dish . And then awhile laters in the midst of our meal , the manager came in to apologise and offered a complimentary dessert to compensate . I thought it was a healthy gesture. Haha . But then , the dessert was also not that fantastic. It did not taste like trimisu at all. :(
Then later accompanied sam , to her busstop and waited for her bus . Her bus took ages to come . Almost wanted to give her $$$ to take cab. But heng , the bus finally came. :)
And then , i went over to klearcut , the saloon . I was so happy that I got the same saloonist who did for me the last time and he remembered me from my haircut. So cool ryte? Then I told him that I wanted to cut my hair short and wanted to keep one side of front long , and then he suggested doing a bobcut and he will do the variations in the front. I just allowed him to do , coz I find that he is really good. And I rebonded my hair and highlighted red + red margenta alittle in the left front of the hair. His suggestions also. I am again quite satisfied with my hair , though alittle upset that I lost my long hair. Hair grows back and mine grows bak ultra fast . So no worries! I was in the saloon frm 2pm to 7pm. A total of 5 hours. With no entertainment of ipod or handphone. I am ultimate survivor of the saloon ! =)
threw her kisses ;9:22 PM
I am facsinated with the cute missy cartoon label on my pearl milk drink :)
Hahaha.
threw her kisses ;1:05 PM
My clinical attachments have ended . And I am having my one week of holidays before I return back to school for my next semster. I so want to rest and relax before I go back to school. I am pretty excited about going back to school . I miss my girls.
And I so wanna go and do something to my hair, like cut it shorter and maybe rebond it again and highlight it , to have a new fresh look for new semster. Any suggestions?
I wanna go watch movies also. Many good movies in theatre . Come and date me for movies. :) And maybe little shopping :X
threw her kisses ;10:29 PM
