This week wasn't really fantastic . Though in the weekends I had a great fun time with the goofy goobers after such a long time. It was really like a reunion . But we haven't grown much yet. :) Mostly ,still single and schooling .
School is sucha a bitch with the all the projects and presentations. And the stupid pre-test , since the school management thinks the students cheated in the
previous common test and puts it all so nicely saying it is trying to help students to score better. Who are you kidding ? And the upcoming finals. These are all the stress elements.
Then , comes friends in school flaunting their bloody attitude and become bossy. I really have low tolerance to such . I will shake it off the very instance , but I am really trying to be mature here.
And , I am sick . I am skipping the openhouse because I am sick. I am on MC for two days . So that maybe explains my mood and my irritation , because works starts piling up and I got no concentration to focus now. Agrh!
threw her kisses ;7:26 PM
Don`t be engulfed by thoughts.
boo,i know you will be surprised by this post, cos i am posting in your blog. ps, you shood know who i am piggy, i`m the only pig who knows yur password to your blogger.
Don`t be so liddat can emo pig. But i oso seriously tink the family is breaking away, esp me i seem to be so busy with school, i`m comign bak at 6 almost everyday this week. i feel so crap. and lyk earliest i can reach home would be 4+++, i feel so shit lah.
i feel so crap lately had some eng test din do as well as i wanted to, i feel my standard of english is falling due to my slackage during e hols, i need to buck up with everthn, i nid to start revising from now onwards. i feel so many things have changed this year. i really dunno rreadyy.
okay now i sound like a emo pig. okay i will shuttup abt myself.
dun be to bothered by you-know-what, do your best wen time comes everthn will fall into place && i tink everythn is already beginning to fall into place.
Lotsa love,
Aish (:
threw her kisses ;7:29 PM
Just returned home , went shopping with the girls to Bugis. The mood wasn't really good , I was kind of unhappy with the girls when they insisted on taking the bus to Bugis despite telling them its a long jourmey and then all the little small talk among themselves and not being honest with me. I rather they be honest with me than keeping things from me thinking that I may be hurt. I do not take others' comments too personal because to me noone is perfect. Everyone has their flaws and i respect it. And I take critisms postively. Though I may question the critism at times because it is just vague and I have the right to defend myself if the critism is just a mere defamation of self. Anyway , this was a really stupid issue .
I was in no mood at all after that too, not cause of the earlier issue but I was just carried away with my thoughts . There just soo many things running through my head. I was looking at the crowd , the people , the couple and the kids. I was just getting lost in the midst of all . I was trying to drown myself with feelings and emotions , its just like my insecurities acting up on me. Somewhat I managed to push it aside and pretend that everything is fine , but it just felt awkward .
And , I miss my sister and my family. It seems like I moved out of the house but all I did was a move out to the room next door. I miss those nights.
threw her kisses ;9:45 PM
Today , I was kind of sian when H called me in the morning to tell me , she doesn't have her S&W shirt , at the very moment and at the instant I knew where she was coming to , she wanted to skip the S&W lesson. But , I was already in the midst preparing to leave home when she had called me , so I decided to just go to school first and then decide later if I should report to S&W , and then I msged B to inform her . Then B called me and told me she was coming for S&W and she was quite sian when I told her I am not sure if I was playing , and then I just decided to go play since I was already at school and she was on her way to school for S&W.
Then , back on the field , everyone seemed tensed . The opponent team looked really fierce and they were really playing the game while some were just playing with the momentum and not practising any rules , which somewhat irritated the others. It wasn't really fun playing today. The air seemed rather tense.
After that , I felt quiet and cold. And I think I must have agitated some people with my mood. But who gives a damn!` I too , am a human being , and I can't possibly be laughing around and joking when I ain't feeling too good with my mood.
And somewhat , today wasn't my day . I was kind of disappointed with him , and with me . Maybe I just expected more.
Hopefully , the rest of my days will be fine :)
threw her kisses ;9:03 PM
I am feeling a little down now. After reading his last entry. I do not know how to feel . I feel stranded on my own feelings and emotions. :(
threw her kisses ;8:39 PM
Today was the first day of school for the brand new year 2008. It was so great to finally go back to school. Meeting all the friends and just catching up with each other , sharing our holidays and our clinical attachment experiences. And , I gave the "Oreos" their little gift I prepared for them. I glad that they liked it very much. It was so weird that they though I had given them a cookie , but it wasn't cookie but it was cookie handphone accessory . Luckily they told me that they wanted to eat it , and I could stop and tell them it wasn't something edible but a handphone accessory. Lol. So cute , in the way they all reacted. :)
And today was the first Sports and Wellness lesson after our commontest and break , I had totally lost touch in the play of touch ruby. Today , we were splitted into two groups to train up for the touch tournment in the coming three weeks time. And we played a game today. It was pretty confusing initally , but I got the hang of it eventually and lucky me got praise from the coach at the end of the session that I am the "Game Ball" for the match, just because I manged to outrun a fellow guy player. Haha. It was fun playing though intially when the coach asked to assess ourself , I assessed myself as a hopless player but I guess I am average player , all I got to do is actively participate and play.
And , one question . Am i stressing myself out with grades or am I just enjoying myself ? I think I am the latter. But I was disagreed . But my honest answer is I am enjoying myself , and I am just going with the momentum. I am not getting any upbeat about it. I just want to be responisble for my every action. :)
threw her kisses ;9:58 PM
Celebrate 2008!
Today , spend the day with family and my grandparents and uncle from London in the morning , went to temple. The family wanted to start the year with blessings from the deities. I felt empty through the whole process in temple , the only comfort I had in the whole process I was with the family. At the moment , I only prayed and wished for the joy and good year with my family.
Then , my maternal grandparents came home . So there was a mini gathering at home. I was simply just interacting with my grandparents and complaining to them that school was starting tommorrow. And shared with my maternal grandpa on my clinical attachment experience. He was amused in how much I have learnt in this short span of time. And he wished me all the best ! I hope I can do him proud and my parents &sister.
And , I feel truly blessed today . My patient saw me in the temple , and she came up to me and greeted me . Atleast I know , I made a difference to her that she can still remember me.
Good start to 2008 ! :)
threw her kisses ;6:47 PM
The New Year Spread :)
Blessed New Year 2008! :)
threw her kisses ;12:55 AM
