I'll still believe

Tues / Wed (29/9/2004 -30/9/2004)

My day is simply bad. My relationship with my class is straining and the realtionship is putting me on a emotional unrest. My emotions are revolvin around the strained relationship with my class. I know for sure , I had done what is needed of me and my actions are justifiable , I have no intention of breaking away from them , but just at tymes , i need to put a foot down to certain issues , coz its me and they can't decide for me whom they want me to portray. I , plea that they may see me as myself , rather than base on their own pseudo assumptions. This whole acceptance thingy among my classmates, its takin a toll on me..... It is demandin a greater tolerance level from myself and patience to deal with the group of people. At all tymes , I make the attempt to get close to them, giving them an opportunity to know me as a person , but they let pass the opportunity, choosin to remain in the darkness on knowing me as a person, yet choose to live by their own pseudo assumptions. Hence every attempt, I make , its a failure. I am getting discouraged everytyme. My decent plea, is to accept me as myself, rather than expecting me to change to whom you wanna see in me..... Lets enjoy the similarities & celebrate the differences.... rather than drown over the differences till the simlaritites are not visible to the eyes... We are all humans , who have differences in our temperamental and emotional behaviour. I simply hope you guys, will just look at things at different perspective and break free from the pseudo assumptions, you are holding rigidly , give me the opportunityto make myself known to you , guys!

The whole struggle was at its peak. I was really hit down by the struggle, that i found it hard to walk thru the storm. All I need now is the strength and patience to built up on the strained relationship. The only comfort that , I need to pull thru the period; was delivered by my family , friends from secondary school; special mention: Azeena & Shalini and sisters from church who support me through this period thru prayers. And finally , the words of God. I simply appericiate the concern and love , the people are showering upon me , and I am glad for the relationship that i enjoy with them and hopefully , sooner , I would experience the same loving relationship with my classmates .=D

Thank you God for re-affirming my soul in your words:

"You have heard that it was said 'Love your neighbour & hate your enemy. But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you...." -Matthew 5:43-44 -

threw her kisses ;10:23 PM