I'll still believe

Thurs (23/6/2005)

Today is Azeena's burfdae. I am such a bad friend , i forgot today was her day till in the evening , i bumped into my calender.... It screamed 23 JUNE , THURSDAY! I felt so bad ... I quickly picked my receiver and called her . The moment i called her , she was quick to know it was me , maybe she must have been eagerly waiitng for my call. She is one of my bestie back from secondary school. But she was so nice , to say that the thought that counts! Aniwaez , i will make it up to her after my mid-yr exams ... Surprise ! Surprise! Hopefully , it can be another stc khakis gathering! I can't wait to meet those peeps , it was so fun the last tyme we met ... Need to take more pics n neoprints.. I still can't forget my dear friend was so into posing for the camera .. she lose her balance off the beam n dropped backwards . I was there standing laffing .. i wuldn't even ask her if she needed help ... I was just laffing away .. it was really funny .. Even as i type tis entry ... i am laffing... Srry ! Can't wait for the next gathering... Must have one real soon! Btw , shalini is also coming back to Singapore for a short holiday .. She is coming back during my mid-yr so i can onli meet her after my exams . I have already booked out the 14 n 15 July ... Both the days are yours , girl... I really miss her . Especially lately , we haven't being chatting .. she is busy with schoolwork and upcoming tests . I am really looking forward to it! I better be concentrating on my studies too ... dun be distracted by all this gathering and all. These are all temptations ! Finally , cleared my desk ... it is now clean .. ready for studying ... Yups , study ! study! study! Thankfully , i have another 2 wks before mid-yr .. Intense intense revision . Most probably , I will stay behind at libarary to study ... Need the intense atmosphere... Home is a No-NO! Too much distractions.. I will be very much settled to procasinate with all the comfort of my computer , tv , bed n my wildness at home. Im totally hyperactive at hme , i will be running ard the hse like a animal on the loose and get myself into fights with my sis. Lolz... Hmmm.. Today , was the EYF , night invasion @ sentosa .. I wanted to go for it very badly . Bt i decided not to go for it , it wasn't that my parents din allow . I din even ask them abt it . I din wanna go for it , coz i knew deep down my purpose of going is really wrong . I wanted to play and have fun , it was my movtivation for going . So i decided to not go , i dunnoe if i was wrong to make decision for not going bt i knew i had to starve myself from this wrong purpose so i will learn to crave for the ultimate purpose to please God! Even as i was at home , i struggled at the thought of the night invasion , i was distracted ... My mind was wondering away .. I wanted the fun especially when tis week is the last week of holidays ... I want to pamper myself... This is all the excuses I give to myself when i want to pamper my flesh. But i must learn to say "NO!". Okies... So today was study study study .... STUDYING IS GOOD!

threw her kisses ;11:52 PM