I'll still believe

Second day at school; I was early again. Back to my early mornings in school. No more coming in late, firstly it was never in my history of being late to school except for yesterday’s brush of being late. I sat in my old sitting position, by the window facing the school quadrangle. I like sitting by the window. Hahaha.. the view is so good. I can look around after each lesson for a break but not during lessons. I’m attentive during lesson. But it very much depends, but mostly I am. The lessons have not started proper yet. So far only, maths lesson have started, did revision on vectors. Need to do some reading up and practicing. I have forgotten much. For human geography, need to do reading up on Population Geography. So far, the day in school was rather slack. Oh yeah! PE today, not bad, I was able to take the running and all despite of the long holidays doing no proper exercise except for occasional playing of sports. But it was rather tiring, running up slopes, doing sit-ups, push-ups and jumping jacks. And then, the horror, weight & height session. I need to do something about my weight. It doesn’t seem to be going anywhere; need to go on intensive villa wellness training. Hiyah! I keep on saying only but I never discipline to carry out. Need to think of ways to make it possible. A little sshhhhhhhhh!!! About today…. I will keep it to myself… Hahaha … Shucks! I hate red-card!

The thoughts in my little mind:
Stop assuming my emotions and thoughts. Let me happy or wad ever! I have no regard for YOU! I will never allow myself to respect you, no matter what. I will never boost my self-esteem with your “ words of motivation” because it will NEVER WORK. Count yourself lucky, and treasure whatever you can for you never will be lucky for long! Better not stretch too far. I am little envious though; on how can the system allow jokers, like you to be accepted. Like RC shared, the society has NO PLACE for failures and that is REALITY. I very much agree with RC. You are just exceptional and I rather you not boast because it DOESN’T WORK ANY LONGER. The harder way to the society works and they are models to the society.

I am also little pissed over the way my time are divided. I am okay with school and all , the usual routine. But I am not okay when I am asked to surrender extra time on weekday. I find it really difficult, because I find rather difficult to give up on my time because I feel I need the time for other things. I dunnoe. But I find myself angry over this matter because I find it too demanding and I am forced to let go. It’s difficult. Hiaz… I will wait and pray in regards to my stewardship of my time.

threw her kisses ;11:48 PM