I'll still believe

Today , I did not have to go school ; all because I had myself exempted from the whole Fun Day. But I must recall last yr's Fun Day , it was really good ; running around Sentosa as a class with our home tutor leading the class. It was sure fun . Posing as Sly to the public and doing a kallang wave facing a passing monrail , having faces painted with paint . It was so sure fun but somehow the fun wasn't going to be same this yr coz my friends are no longer there . But it was the Fun Day , we bonded we clicked. But yet , I find it so different.

So , as I rest at home ; I was getting really agiated and fustrated because I am so hungry and yet there is nothing at home to eat. I am so lazy to go down and grab something because I had to go and make myself up . So I choose to lie down and be just fustrated and agiated over my hunger. Hungry man is always a angry man. Thankfully , my mum bought some food back.

Then in the afternoon , we were all in the room , watching some documentry that my dad had filmed. Just as we were watching , we heard a loud shout outside our flat. We went to look , a couple was having a quarrel and the man had threw his handphone and banged his head into the concerete wall. It somehow reminded me in how at times , we do not know how to control our emotions and we act so much in impulse that we find everything so meaningless. We disregard the time we invested on it and just do things in so rash and in impluse that it shows that it is so meaningless. It somehow thought me to be still and reflect when emotions and impulsive thoughts were to come.

Okies , I think I have not blogged any entry about my work in the Kumon for the past few weeks. I enjoy working at kumon especially when the kids are really adorable; and good and diligient in their work. But I get really agiated with kids who are easily distracted and they disturb the other kids , because she/he makes things so difficult that i will be have to be harsh with them . I do not hope to be harsh with kids because kids usually forms impression quite fast and they will not let go to fast because they ain't mature enough to comprehend and reason for the teachers' actions. So sometimes when I need to be harsh , i know the kid is not going to be liking me but going to dread everytime i take him or her. It is difficult beacuse I am ought to disclipline them and i can't just ignore them . So sometimes i wish I do not have to take them but another teacher will take them but i guess everyone feels the same. I find loving is really difficult. I pray for myself to bearing the fruit of love in my life .

threw her kisses ;11:50 PM