I’m truly upset with myself.

I really do not like my time stretched . I want to spend sometime with my friends. I hardly have any contact with my friends. It has been really some time. I was just occupied with things after things. I must learn to say “No!” at times. I want to be involved in lives and not just task after task. I am just tired and tested. I want to be with my friends. I truly miss everyone. And everyone is missing in action also. I do not want to let go my friendship just like that. All these endless things can stop, but not the lives I meet each day and journeyed with. I love you everyone deep down my heart. I do not know why I sounding so emo now. But I have been feeling it. I lay in bed, thinking how I can arrange a spontaneous outing but it fails with all the other things I have. I want to be free. Yes, free with all my darlings! I really missing everyone . I wish I can go back times . All I have to say my secondary school days are the best. The mornings were simply awesome. All the talk of growing up but now it is no longer exciting and amusing as back then. The laughters we laughed , is now being laughed back at us like trials that never end just like back then the laughters that won’t stop . Hiaz. I wish I never grew . I want to be the innocent little one who enjoys . Why did eve and adam had to eat the fruit from the tree of wisdom ? It all started from there. Why? If they had not ? We will be much happier I suppose . ~lala