It is like after so long , I finally went back to the gathering of people , youth fellowship. Initially , while I was travelling , I was feeling rather weak and was frightened in how will the people react and what could be my reply be to them. Just then , I prayed asking God to calm my heart and prepare me for worship , and to guard all my thoughts. And I felt much at ease then , and as I walked in to EH . Most of them just greeted me and I was at ease because I couldn't really know what to tell them for my long absence from the youth fellowship , and God had been my shield. Though initally , when I had met up with my CD and Jas , and shared with them , my struggle , they offered to be my shield and protect me. But I kindly turn down their offer and told them I will be fine on my own . However , I was fine because I was with God in the process but not on my own.
The reasons on why I never attended youth fellowship for sometime :
1. I was lazy to drag myself out of the house especially having to leave home in the late afternoon. Some lazy Satudays!
2. I want to spend some time with my friends and family during the weekends and go shopping.
3. Busy mugging during the exam period.
4. Disturbed with some issues , like death of a close relative and bgr.
5. Irritated and fustrated with the ministry work , meetings and all the plannings.
I have decided to list down my struggles on why I choose not to attend youth fellowship and this are the very real temptations I face week after week. By listing down the struggles , I believe that I can guard myself from falling into the temptation of avoiding the gathering of the people . And hope that I can get fellow siblings to account to and be my keeper when I face the temptations week after week.
And yesterday during the worship and testimonial time , he had shared this song , Rejoice in the Lord and the song had ministered to me even as we sang the song as a yf group. I felt the song was a very good reminder of our earthly lives and the power of God.
"God never moves without purpose or plan
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the Lord though your testing seems long;
In darkness He giveth a song.
I could not see through the shadows ahead,
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead.
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.
Now I can see testing comes from above;
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging, more fruit I will bear.
[chorus]
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake.
He knoweth the end of each path that I take.
For when I am tried and purified,I shall come forth as gold."
threw her kisses ;10:22 PM
